You gave a chicken an actual massage?OOOPS! I was supposed to go to a breakfast BBQ this morning, and I completely forgot. Instead I gave a chicken a massage and an espon salt bath and tried to water the garden. I feel bad cos I did actually want to go.
Can you afford help? How big is your garden? How about you take 10 minute breaks when you feel some pain. Wear a tank top and shorts. Wear sunscreen. Drink water often. Take a bath afterwards or unless if you have a jacuzzi, then use it. Take some painkillers while you are at it.I figured out why watering the garden takes it out of me so much, besides the obvious distress of pouring that much chemically treated water into the dirt, I look down the whole time. I don't hold my own head up, and it puts my neck out cos I had to bend so often to move the old monster hose. I actually injure myself every single time I water, and being so hot, I have to water at least 3 times a week. This isn't good. I cant imagine the damage to my neck now after 2 years of that. I hope I don't survive when it does inevitably collapse. The new hoses made it much easier but have a lower rate of flow. I am starting to hate the garden, it is too small for a horse and too big to just enjoy. If that stupid gardener hadn't cut back the one tree providing shade for the whole middle of the yard, I would have a shade tree 3 times the size and not have to water as much. I am really frustrated.
Everything is trashed after the wild weather we had. I lost everything I had been working on the last few months, not for the first time. Its useless asking for help from my family for anything like this cos when I say "I need this" they say "No you need that" and give me things that are of absolutely no use or assistance to me, and then scream at me for not being grateful. Like when I asked for help with doing retic for the trees, we got the orchid done which was actually the only part I didn't need help with, the hose reached them fine and they were designed as flood beds, not for sprinklers. Its such a waste of everyones time when no one actually hears what I am trying to communicate. I don't have the cash to do proper retic for the whole lot, but I am capable of doing the work if I had supplies. The gardening was supposed to be included with the rent, but once I fired the gardener for cutting down the tree, that right was lost and the rent stayed the same. It is so, so expensive to upkeep this place and not nearly as rewarding as horses.
I wish I had moved to the granny flat with the crazy lady down the road. My horse would have been allowed to come with me, and the rent was cheaper. That was my plan until I got trapped here. A smaller house suits me much better, this house is way too big to keep clean and the garden is just a money suck, when I don't have money to be sucked! I understand why most in town now wouldn't be too fussed if a fire wiped the lot out. We'd all get a better quality of life on the insurance money. I do love the cottage, a lot, but it is too big for one person and the garden is a dying wasteland in my care. I miss my horses so much and have no idea how to keep fit and healthy without them holding my routine. I tried really hard to compensate with the buns, but they don't need near on as much care, and adding to the pet brood doesn't fill the hole horses left.
Truthfully, if I was a billionaire, I would stay in the area (its perfect for horses), heck, I'd stay on this property with a few improvements. I have room for a lap pool... but its just such a struggle right now with such limitations, not just financially but socially as well. There is a big camp draft down the road, and I don't want to go in case seeing horses makes me cry, and crying in public is what got me into this isolated mess in the first place.
No problem. I was just trying to help as much as I can. I know we all need advice every now and then.I appreciate your kind advice @FaithLehane16 it probably wont do much good getting into it. Needed a rant.
So are you on social security or not? I'm confused by this paragraph here. It sounds like you are, but I am not sure.Being put on social security/disability was a crap day for me. I thought there was no way I was disabled enough to be deemed too useless to even get a job, but apparently I lack insight in that area. It is very difficult to get disability payments here and every review my capacity is seen as diminished. To me it felt like a complete failure, and I should have been given a euthinasia option rather than be a miserable drain on the tax payer. The distain from society when you're limited by centrelink is tough to deal with, more so rurally. And when I have worked, its all too easy for employees to take advantage, especially when they know you live below the poverty line. I have done a lot of live in jobs, and work in exchange for horse privledges. I was brain injured by a mixture of prescribed medications after being injured at an unpaid position on a horse property caring for 44 horses. That job was my ultimate dream, all I had ever wanted from life and I lost it.
I am sorry. *hug* *hug*I dont have a bad life now, its just not particularly stimulating for me without horses and I frequently fall into the "why am I even here" hole. Many bitten by the horse bug feel the same without ponies in their lives. I can't go around buying luxury items and participating in competitions on the tax payers dime. I can't do work in exchange for rides anymore because the work is beyond my bodies capabilities now. I could care for a horse of my own in an agistment situation, but that doesnt come cheap and it would be wrong to use disability payments for a pony.
Why aren't you interested in the comics?I have had horses in my life since I was 12 years old, the last 3 years has been a special hell without them. At least I have BB, as a constant, but it feels time for me to move on since I rarely watch the shows and have little interest in the comics
That is great!!I had a great day yesterday, bought some craft supplies, ate cake, took photos of my mother for her passport! Don't think it was supposed as fun as it was at least on my end!
The reason why I don't read is because of inconsistent writing.The comic writers talk in lingo I dont understand. I dont really know what a vlog is, nor have much interest in learning what the cool new trends of teenhood are. I'd rather not waste money to read a format I don't understand and have it taint my memories of a very special show/time period of my life.
I am glad to be the bringer of good news on this lovely Saturday!Holy shit! holy shit! This is Saturday. I was thinking it was Friday and was about ready to get ready for work. OH MAN! My day is pretty darn sweet right about nows. I still have to work but can do that with my drawers on from home.
Apparently fixing my toilet.