- Mar 13, 2009
You can always tell when I am "better" cos I dont whinge and bitch on here It'll never be fully healed. Got told it was in my head for over a decade before a rando GP decided it wasnt and the CT scan proved it wasnt. Far too late for any sort of rehab. Just relief seeking. I still cant get over the anger of misdiagnosis. Its really hard to question sanity every single day when I was never actually insane to begin with - everything I experienced was a real reaction to spinal injury, body damage and extreme pain. The therapy and drugs and excessive time in hospital destroyed any chance of a "normal" life. I am so lucky I live where I do - cos nothing is "normal" here. I do miss my sisters. They cut me off when I started taking psych meds, but the docs convinced me I was a nutcase and needed them, they said the side effects and withdrawal didn't exist. They do. NOW I am a nutcase but they can't manipulate me like that again. I will die before I agree to take drugs daily again.