Faith/willowfan
Potential
I cant tell you who wrote these poems but they really touched me, the first one was inspired by revelations the others by life i supose.
Why?
Have you ever had your heart broke,
I have and its horrible,
the worst feeling in the world.
You feel like you want to die,
but you cant and you know it,
but you dont know why?
All you know is for some reason,
you cant just die,
you cant just slip away into nothingless.
All you can think of is them and,
why would they,
how could they,
do this to me.
They must never have loved me at all,
was it all an act,
it must be otherwise why would they do this to me,
they must never have loved me at all,
never, ever, ever...
but why, whats wrong with me?
I have and its horrible,
the worst feeling in the world.
You feel like you want to die,
but you cant and you know it,
but you dont know why?
All you know is for some reason,
you cant just die,
you cant just slip away into nothingless.
All you can think of is them and,
why would they,
how could they,
do this to me.
They must never have loved me at all,
was it all an act,
it must be otherwise why would they do this to me,
they must never have loved me at all,
never, ever, ever...
but why, whats wrong with me?
Will I love again
Will I know love again,
Have I ever even had it.
I thought I had it once,
but now I dont think I recieved it,
but i definetly gave it.
Maybe I chose the wrong one,
I should have chose her friend not her.
She made my life even worse.
We had a stormy relationship,
well it was more like a prolonged hurricaine.
But she did make me feel confident,
back then, but not anymore.
I've made so many bad choices,
why is my life this bad,
I dont even have hope anymore,
at least with the stepmum,
I could look forward to leaving.
But now shes left and I have nothing,
nothing to look forward to.
Absolutely nothing.
Have I ever even had it.
I thought I had it once,
but now I dont think I recieved it,
but i definetly gave it.
Maybe I chose the wrong one,
I should have chose her friend not her.
She made my life even worse.
We had a stormy relationship,
well it was more like a prolonged hurricaine.
But she did make me feel confident,
back then, but not anymore.
I've made so many bad choices,
why is my life this bad,
I dont even have hope anymore,
at least with the stepmum,
I could look forward to leaving.
But now shes left and I have nothing,
nothing to look forward to.
Absolutely nothing.
Escape
I dont think I'll ever be happy,
not truely and really anyway,
I mean how can someone without a mother,
and without a real loving father be happy.
I dont think you can.
I think our souls are connected to those of our parents,
so if we are disconnected from them,
then we are incomplete and therfore unhappy.
No one can fill this hole inside,
no lover, no friends, nothing,
I'll be sad and empty forever,
or until I've escaped through sweet death.
Sometimes I wish I could just slip into a coma,
and escape into a deep sleep.
I'd feel free and see if anyone really loved me,
Like on T.V. when Jamie died,
all the people who loved him where there.
But I dont think many people,
if any people would be there for me.
I mean no ones ever been there for me so far,
Except Mary Ellen, but i think she was just lonely,
sad and lonely, like me,
just looking for a way out, an escape.
What did I do to deserve this,
it must have been bad, if not terrible.
I wish i could leave this life behind,
Amnesia seems like a perfect escape for me,
but I dont think theres a sure way to get it.
In my current life,
my only escape is sleep.
However even then,
I'm sometimes haunted by my dreams.
I cant wait to escape,
but I think the only way I will,
is in a coffin or worse.
not truely and really anyway,
I mean how can someone without a mother,
and without a real loving father be happy.
I dont think you can.
I think our souls are connected to those of our parents,
so if we are disconnected from them,
then we are incomplete and therfore unhappy.
No one can fill this hole inside,
no lover, no friends, nothing,
I'll be sad and empty forever,
or until I've escaped through sweet death.
Sometimes I wish I could just slip into a coma,
and escape into a deep sleep.
I'd feel free and see if anyone really loved me,
Like on T.V. when Jamie died,
all the people who loved him where there.
But I dont think many people,
if any people would be there for me.
I mean no ones ever been there for me so far,
Except Mary Ellen, but i think she was just lonely,
sad and lonely, like me,
just looking for a way out, an escape.
What did I do to deserve this,
it must have been bad, if not terrible.
I wish i could leave this life behind,
Amnesia seems like a perfect escape for me,
but I dont think theres a sure way to get it.
In my current life,
my only escape is sleep.
However even then,
I'm sometimes haunted by my dreams.
I cant wait to escape,
but I think the only way I will,
is in a coffin or worse.