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An essay on Angel I adored:
My favorite bits:
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I always felt that Angel is the ultimate existentialist hero; this essay helped me to understand him better and deeper.
My favorite bits:
If Angel were to forgive others and forgive himself, while at the same time believing that “if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do” (a declaration of free will and hope), then the act of saving a life, saving a soul, with his friends at his side while feeling surrounded by love—that would be enough to lose his soul. Ecstasy is not orgasm. Feeling close to others, feeling accepted, feeling forgiven, feeling loved, feeling useful, feeling like a force for good—these are what Angel yearns for, these are what would bring him perfect happiness—not sex—and so these virtues and desirable states are what he fears most because to attain them all at once is to lose his soul and become a soulless creature that would destroy all which he loved. Angel cannot self-actualize because he is cursed, because letting go of what he can't control and allowing himself to know inner peace would destroy him—admitting his limits of control would then lead to a complete loss of control. If he evolves too much in his humanity, his soul is torn from him and he becomes a warped, destructive reflection of his former self.
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Don't forget to save the Prince, Buffy. Save him from his despair—Connor is absent and he doesn't have Cordelia to help him now.
I always felt that Angel is the ultimate existentialist hero; this essay helped me to understand him better and deeper.