This is my first Buffy/Angel fan fic and is set between the summer of season three and four. The main characters include Buffy, Willow, Xander, Cordelia, Oz and Giles along with 'guest appearences' of some familiar faces! Hope you like it! The chapters are quite long so I will only be posting a max. of two chapters per post!
ENJOY!!!!! ::wave::
Chapter 1
"I'm sorry. I really am. It wasn't supposed to turn out like this. God, I don't know where it went wrong...but sometimes I ask myself...was it ever right to begin with? We messed with destiny...Xander, Angel...all of us...it's not how the prophecy was meant to be..."
Buffy paused and stroked her hand, listening to the gentle beep...beep...beep of the hospital monitor.
"I know you hate the world...I know you hate me...and I so wanna tell you that the feelings mutual...but it isn't. I tried to help you...we all did...and God if I had to go back and do it again, y'know what? I would. To some extent you were the only person who truly understood me...the only one in the world who knew what being chosen was all about..."
The slayer reached out her hand and stroked the girls head...still with the almost silent beep...beep...beep in the background.
"I did what I had to do for the sake of the world..it's what we do right...our birthrite? I just hope you can forgive me, Faith."
Buffy was startled by the sound of footsteps behind her. She turned around to see Willow standing behind her. She looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost 10pm. She had been talking to Faith for almost forty-five minutes.
Buffy smiled up at her red headed friend...she was glad to see her.
"How long have you been standing there, Will?" she asked, wiping the sleep from her eyes and pushing a strand of perfectly curled hair behind her ear.
"Long enough to know..." Willow replied dreamily.
Buffy laughed a laugh of confusion.
"Long enough to know what?"
There was moments pause before Willow answered. She removed her hand from Buffy's shoulder and walked round to the side of Faith's bed, where she stood opposite Buffy. The warm and comforting smile that had occupied her face only moments before had disappeared without a trace.
"To know that you're wrong. God Buffy, when are you going to stop lying to youself?"
"Will, what's going on...what are you..." But Buffy wasn't given a chance to finish her sentence.
"Do you really believe that she'd forgive you? After what you did?"
"Please Will! You know it wasn't like that!" Buffy tried to hold back the tears with much strain.
"Yeah it was! And you know it! Angel knew it...why else would he have left? Xander knows it...so does Cordelia...even Oz! You hurt the one person in the world that was like you...because she wanted your help...but you thought she was evil..."
"No," the slayer's voice was a mere whisper now.
"She trusted you...she wanted your help...and look where it got her..."
Willow reached out and stroked Faith's hair.
"I've faced a lot with you Buffy...but that is truly evil..."
Buffy woke up with a jolt, a tear streaming down her face as her eyes adjusted to the shadows in her bedroom. She looked at the digital clock on her bedside table...it was almost 4am.
She knew she wouldn't be able to get back to sleep, so she got up and fetched herself a glass of water. Walking back up the stairs, she stopped to look at picture of Xander, Willow and herself hanging on the wall near her bedroom.
She thought back to the good old days when it had just been the three of them, fighting the demons, vampires and the forces of darkness...the occasional apocalypse to boot. But that was then and it was in the past. This was now.
As Buffy walked back to her bedroom and shut her door, she couldn't help but mutter the words, "I am sorry Faith."
Chapter 2
Buffy sat in the corner table of The Espresso Pump, waiting for Willow whom she had agreed to meet at 1pm. It was 12.50...
Thinking about her dream the night before, Buffy sat staring at the table, idly playing with a small packet of sugar. She didn't even notice when her witchy friend came trotting up beside her and sat down.
"Hey Buffy!" Willow said brightly, obviously in a very good mood.
"Huh? Oh hey, Will...sorry, I was kinda in Slayerzone..." she placed the small sugar packet back in the holder and faced her friend.
"Ready to get all caffinated up?" Willow shook her head from side to side, still smiling, and placed her small Tigger-shaped rucksack on the remaining chair at the girls table.
"You sure you're not already caffinated up, Will?"
"Nope...I'm Ozinated up!!!" her friend replied brightly.
"Do tell!"
She paused and waited for her friend to explain, but quickly thought of something.
"Oh and please just give me the PG-13 rated version...I'm not Anya!"
She thought a moment of Anya...the ex vengeance demon who had scampered away at the mere thought of the Mayor taking over Sunnyhell...but the thought was quickly displaced by Willows eager smile.
"Oh Buffy purlease!!! What do you take me for? I just mean that I'm very happy in my relaitonship is all! I mean we're gonna be going to the same school soon, the Mayor is toast...literally...and I have great friends!"
The smile that was on Buffy's face slowly started to disapear as the recollection of the previous nights dream came flooding back to her.
"Um...what'd I say?" Willow was looking pretty confused at the sight of her friends sudden unhappiness.
"No, Will you didn't say anything! I'm fine...really..." She placed a reassuring hand on Willows arm trying to convince her friend who was suddenly looking very concerned.
"C'mon...let's high on mochas! I'm paying!"
"Sounds good to me!"
Buffy got up from her seat as Willow saved the table and went to queue up. The queue was pretty long and Buffy knew she'd have at least a ten minute wait. She glanced over at her friend who looked quite content, reading a text message from her little silver phone.
Probably Oz, Buffy thought. God, she's so lucky!
Still waiting in the line, Buffy began to take notice of the things around her.
She noticed a young woman in front of her, roughly the same age as Buffy and her firends, who looked slightly familiar.
She had dark brown hair, that looked as if it hadn't been brushed that morning and was wearing a white tank top and jeans.
She suddenly turned round and spoke.
"Man, this is wicked boring! What's a girl gotta do to get some coffee round here?"
Buffy couldn't believe her eyes. Faith was standing not more than two feet in front of Buffy...staring straight at her!
"What the fu..."
"Now, now B. Don't use bad language...why'd you look so surprised to see me? You didn't think I was gonna stay asleep forever did you? And let you get away with that? I don't think so!!!"
Starting to panic, Buffy glanced at her friend Willow who had looked up and was smiling at her friend, not seeming to notice Faith or the panic on Buffy's face.
"I...I...but..." Buffy couldn't form a sentence, which was pretty lucky considering she didn't really know what she wanted to say.
Panicking even more, Buffy glanced behind her and around her to see if anyone else had noticed what had been going on. No one seemed to be paying attention to the two girls.
She glanced quickly out on to the street and then back to Faith...who had turned back around and now had her back to Buffy again...
Buffy grabbed her arm and spun her round.
"Hey!" the darkhaired woman shouted. "What the hell are you doing?"
Buffy let go of the womans arm when she relaised it wasn't Faith at all.
"You're not Faith..." Buffy said in surprise...and embarrassment.
"No...and I'm sincerely glad of that...geez..I think you should stay away from the coffee blondie..."
Buffy muttered an apology and ran over to Willow.
"C'mon, we gotta get out of here...now!"
"But Buffy...mochas? Sugary goodness?"
"No time for that...the Hellmouth is back in business!"
She picked up her bag and ran from the Pump, her redheaded friendly quickly followed suit, glancing at the people nervously who were giving them very strange looks.
"Buffy! What's going on!!!"
"Something very strange is going on...that's what's going on!"
"Okay hun, gonna have to be more specific. Saying 'something strange is going on' pretty much describes every signle day of our life!"
*****
NOTE: I've got 15 chapters so far but will post them once I get some feedback! Let me know if you wanna see more and tell me what you think!
ENJOY!!!!! ::wave::
Chapter 1
"I'm sorry. I really am. It wasn't supposed to turn out like this. God, I don't know where it went wrong...but sometimes I ask myself...was it ever right to begin with? We messed with destiny...Xander, Angel...all of us...it's not how the prophecy was meant to be..."
Buffy paused and stroked her hand, listening to the gentle beep...beep...beep of the hospital monitor.
"I know you hate the world...I know you hate me...and I so wanna tell you that the feelings mutual...but it isn't. I tried to help you...we all did...and God if I had to go back and do it again, y'know what? I would. To some extent you were the only person who truly understood me...the only one in the world who knew what being chosen was all about..."
The slayer reached out her hand and stroked the girls head...still with the almost silent beep...beep...beep in the background.
"I did what I had to do for the sake of the world..it's what we do right...our birthrite? I just hope you can forgive me, Faith."
Buffy was startled by the sound of footsteps behind her. She turned around to see Willow standing behind her. She looked at the clock on the wall. It was almost 10pm. She had been talking to Faith for almost forty-five minutes.
Buffy smiled up at her red headed friend...she was glad to see her.
"How long have you been standing there, Will?" she asked, wiping the sleep from her eyes and pushing a strand of perfectly curled hair behind her ear.
"Long enough to know..." Willow replied dreamily.
Buffy laughed a laugh of confusion.
"Long enough to know what?"
There was moments pause before Willow answered. She removed her hand from Buffy's shoulder and walked round to the side of Faith's bed, where she stood opposite Buffy. The warm and comforting smile that had occupied her face only moments before had disappeared without a trace.
"To know that you're wrong. God Buffy, when are you going to stop lying to youself?"
"Will, what's going on...what are you..." But Buffy wasn't given a chance to finish her sentence.
"Do you really believe that she'd forgive you? After what you did?"
"Please Will! You know it wasn't like that!" Buffy tried to hold back the tears with much strain.
"Yeah it was! And you know it! Angel knew it...why else would he have left? Xander knows it...so does Cordelia...even Oz! You hurt the one person in the world that was like you...because she wanted your help...but you thought she was evil..."
"No," the slayer's voice was a mere whisper now.
"She trusted you...she wanted your help...and look where it got her..."
Willow reached out and stroked Faith's hair.
"I've faced a lot with you Buffy...but that is truly evil..."
Buffy woke up with a jolt, a tear streaming down her face as her eyes adjusted to the shadows in her bedroom. She looked at the digital clock on her bedside table...it was almost 4am.
She knew she wouldn't be able to get back to sleep, so she got up and fetched herself a glass of water. Walking back up the stairs, she stopped to look at picture of Xander, Willow and herself hanging on the wall near her bedroom.
She thought back to the good old days when it had just been the three of them, fighting the demons, vampires and the forces of darkness...the occasional apocalypse to boot. But that was then and it was in the past. This was now.
As Buffy walked back to her bedroom and shut her door, she couldn't help but mutter the words, "I am sorry Faith."
Chapter 2
Buffy sat in the corner table of The Espresso Pump, waiting for Willow whom she had agreed to meet at 1pm. It was 12.50...
Thinking about her dream the night before, Buffy sat staring at the table, idly playing with a small packet of sugar. She didn't even notice when her witchy friend came trotting up beside her and sat down.
"Hey Buffy!" Willow said brightly, obviously in a very good mood.
"Huh? Oh hey, Will...sorry, I was kinda in Slayerzone..." she placed the small sugar packet back in the holder and faced her friend.
"Ready to get all caffinated up?" Willow shook her head from side to side, still smiling, and placed her small Tigger-shaped rucksack on the remaining chair at the girls table.
"You sure you're not already caffinated up, Will?"
"Nope...I'm Ozinated up!!!" her friend replied brightly.
"Do tell!"
She paused and waited for her friend to explain, but quickly thought of something.
"Oh and please just give me the PG-13 rated version...I'm not Anya!"
She thought a moment of Anya...the ex vengeance demon who had scampered away at the mere thought of the Mayor taking over Sunnyhell...but the thought was quickly displaced by Willows eager smile.
"Oh Buffy purlease!!! What do you take me for? I just mean that I'm very happy in my relaitonship is all! I mean we're gonna be going to the same school soon, the Mayor is toast...literally...and I have great friends!"
The smile that was on Buffy's face slowly started to disapear as the recollection of the previous nights dream came flooding back to her.
"Um...what'd I say?" Willow was looking pretty confused at the sight of her friends sudden unhappiness.
"No, Will you didn't say anything! I'm fine...really..." She placed a reassuring hand on Willows arm trying to convince her friend who was suddenly looking very concerned.
"C'mon...let's high on mochas! I'm paying!"
"Sounds good to me!"
Buffy got up from her seat as Willow saved the table and went to queue up. The queue was pretty long and Buffy knew she'd have at least a ten minute wait. She glanced over at her friend who looked quite content, reading a text message from her little silver phone.
Probably Oz, Buffy thought. God, she's so lucky!
Still waiting in the line, Buffy began to take notice of the things around her.
She noticed a young woman in front of her, roughly the same age as Buffy and her firends, who looked slightly familiar.
She had dark brown hair, that looked as if it hadn't been brushed that morning and was wearing a white tank top and jeans.
She suddenly turned round and spoke.
"Man, this is wicked boring! What's a girl gotta do to get some coffee round here?"
Buffy couldn't believe her eyes. Faith was standing not more than two feet in front of Buffy...staring straight at her!
"What the fu..."
"Now, now B. Don't use bad language...why'd you look so surprised to see me? You didn't think I was gonna stay asleep forever did you? And let you get away with that? I don't think so!!!"
Starting to panic, Buffy glanced at her friend Willow who had looked up and was smiling at her friend, not seeming to notice Faith or the panic on Buffy's face.
"I...I...but..." Buffy couldn't form a sentence, which was pretty lucky considering she didn't really know what she wanted to say.
Panicking even more, Buffy glanced behind her and around her to see if anyone else had noticed what had been going on. No one seemed to be paying attention to the two girls.
She glanced quickly out on to the street and then back to Faith...who had turned back around and now had her back to Buffy again...
Buffy grabbed her arm and spun her round.
"Hey!" the darkhaired woman shouted. "What the hell are you doing?"
Buffy let go of the womans arm when she relaised it wasn't Faith at all.
"You're not Faith..." Buffy said in surprise...and embarrassment.
"No...and I'm sincerely glad of that...geez..I think you should stay away from the coffee blondie..."
Buffy muttered an apology and ran over to Willow.
"C'mon, we gotta get out of here...now!"
"But Buffy...mochas? Sugary goodness?"
"No time for that...the Hellmouth is back in business!"
She picked up her bag and ran from the Pump, her redheaded friendly quickly followed suit, glancing at the people nervously who were giving them very strange looks.
"Buffy! What's going on!!!"
"Something very strange is going on...that's what's going on!"
"Okay hun, gonna have to be more specific. Saying 'something strange is going on' pretty much describes every signle day of our life!"
*****
NOTE: I've got 15 chapters so far but will post them once I get some feedback! Let me know if you wanna see more and tell me what you think!