KEVIN: So I heard you, like, had a freak-out and cut yourself.
DAWN: Uh, no, not even. It was a whole ... it was so not...
KEVIN: I've felt like that before. Things get so crazed, you know, you just feel like you wanna do something ... extreme.
DAWN: Yeah. I just ... I had a lot of intense stuff going on. A lot of people don't understand that. Pain.
(The Body)
I think little Kevin here kinda gets it right.
Dawn was hurting. That's the explanation.
When you hurt like that, you don't get it. Because the pain is so vivid and yet, no open wound, no broken bone. You cannot deal with the pain because it's unknown, it's new, it's like nothing you've seen or heard of before. It just questions your own life, your own being, which is just the exact same thing Dawn is dealing with. So, in order to make the pain into something you can deal with, you have to locate it, and therefore to place it somewhere. So you hurt yourself physically so you know where it hurts, and so you can see it, really feel it and have an explanation for it, understand it.
I also believe it's about control, as some of you said. Dawn's life was just totally unraveling, nothing she had lived was real, man, she wasn't even real ! That's the feeling teens can get. They're not as good, they're not as strong, so they're not as alive, not as "here" as the others are. And they cannot control it. So they try to control it, or at least to control something. It's a quest for answers, for control in your life, and for somehow purity.
That's it, I believe. It's about misplacing your anger, your focus, your hunger for control and understanding, just so you can have the brief feeling of satisfaction when you feel like you've got it. But in fact, well, you really haven't.
I totally agree with you, Blondie Bear. Food disorders are to be put in the same category... And it takes a lot of self-control and will to be able to put oneself out of this...
Okay that post was just so depressing, I'm sorry.