Depression

[CordyCat]

Okay so....I have a court date in one week and don't have anything done that I was suppose to have done and I also owe $170 to them which I can't pay. I have been having trouble at home my mom has been a two faced WITCH with me and everyone around me (except my brother). I have been having thoughts of suicide and I just can't deal anymore. Why does life have to be so awful for some and totally perfect for everyone else? I cried today for the first time in over a year because I was so upset and I never cry.

 

[Blondie Bear]

Oh, sweetie. *HUG*

Sometimes life falls down around our ears. It stinks. But it does get better. Really. I know that sounds COMPLETELY cliched and horrible, but it really really does. Unless your depression is clinical--but it sounds like you have actual reasons, not just a chemical imbalance--it will go away. Just hang in there, and you can always PM me if you need to.

 

[JenniferAlice]

Firstly, DON'T KILL YOURSELF!!

Secondly, everyone feels like this from time to time.. Feelings of despair and hoplessness can be overwhelming, best thing you can do is talk to someone. Take it easy, try to relax.

 

[luckystar]

that sucks but i really can understand where u are coming from i feel like that a lot, i have gone thru and still am in the middle of personal family dramas and such around me and i often feel angry seeing how easily others seem to go thru life and im going thru drama's everyday, it will get better though sometimes the things we worry about arent as bad as we think so just hang in there and im also here to talk if needed 🙂

 

[Washburne]

I´m so sorry for you. :hug:

That the others have said is true but if one is really down that rarely helps to hear that life gets better or that most people go though depressions of some kind. But they do. And life will get better in some ways. Just don´t cunfuse it with being perfec. No ones life is perfect. Better/Good in many ways yes, but not perfect. Thinking about suicide and actually do it isn´t the same thing thank god (as I know from personal experience. Was it easy I wouldn´t be here now) so I really hope you manages to pull through this and experience some better times that are bound to happen.

 

[Sweetescape]

I felt like that this past year,everything's crumbling around my head and not one of my friends seem to notice that i want them to ask me if i'm ok,just so i can tell someone. I've gotten into a habit of just running a bath and sitting there crying,which is stupid i shouldn't be like this i've got loads of good things,friends,a good job. I did try stuff.. to make it stop but it didn't work really. But i just keep reminding myself i've got amazing friends and stuff to look forward to, i'm determined to make this year better and i'm starting by throwing out all my old things, out with the old in with the new. No matter how low i feel,theirs always something to bring me back and it does get better 🙂

 

[Joan the Vampire Slayer]

Okay so....I have a court date in one week and don't have anything done that I was suppose to have done and I also owe $170 to them which I can't pay. I have been having trouble at home my mom has been a two faced WITCH with me and everyone around me (except my brother). I have been having thoughts of suicide and I just can't deal anymore. Why does life have to be so awful for some and totally perfect for everyone else? I cried today for the first time in over a year because I was so upset and I never cry.

Life's tough, you know? It's how you handle it that defines who you are. And believe me, NO ONE'S life is perfect....if they say that, they're probobly lying. It takes hard work to make your life the way you want.

We're here for you 🙂
PM if you want to talk?

 

[CordyCat]

Thanks all, it has become a little better within the last hours or two after reading all the replies. I am just so worried that I will go to jail and I have already been there for 3 days and do not think I can go back. That is my biggest fear of all time being trapped and stuck. I just do not know what I am going to do at all. Atleast I have my cats (Eve and Lilah) to get me through the rough times.

 

[Blaze]

I totaly get what your saying and trust me it will get better. I've also been through a lot and i did some really stupid things... so please don't try anything stupid cause it will only make things worst. The best thing to do is to talk to someones and if your not confortable enough to do so (like I was) you should try to find something that you love to do just so that you can at least take things off your mind. For me it was horseback riding and if I wouldn't have had my horse, I might not even be here today.

Take it easy for a while and try to enjoy life even though it's hard. PM me if you need anything

 

[VisionGuy]

Oh wow. That is quite a situation you've got there.

The hardest thing in this world is living in it. All I can say is take it easy. Things will get better eventually.

 

[bigmoneygrip]

Thanks all, it has become a little better within the last hours or two after reading all the replies. I am just so worried that I will go to jail and I have already been there for 3 days and do not think I can go back. That is my biggest fear of all time being trapped and stuck. I just do not know what I am going to do at all. Atleast I have my cats (Eve and Lilah) to get me through the rough times.

Glad to hear that. When I read your first post, I said a little prayer for you. I hear you about your cats. Mine know my emotions better than anyone and just that little nudge or look or meow helps me get through. I'm glad they are there for you, too.

 

[tommy]

Hey, you just gotta ride through the bad and don't give up. You never know, a year or two from now, your life might be perfect.

Loads of people are depressed or have been at some point in their lives, you'd be surprised. 2008 was the hardest year of my life, I felt like killing myself so many times.