Here's my greatest fear you guys...
My x girlfriend and her friends. I was in a relationship with my girlfriend for 16 months. I was more than positive she was my soul mate. On June 4th she desided to fake her death, and left her 6 best friends to kill me. For 3 months all I did was cry and blame myself for someones death, and fear that today would be they day they come to kill me. 3 or 4 attempts on my life, 3 months of stalking, and 3 months of me crying so hard I throw up and then pass out on the floor, I couldn't take it anymore. I put a plastic bag over my head and I waited for my life to leave me. Luckly my friend happened to stop by and find me. I only had amnesia for a week, but the emotional scars left over are so much worse. Today they started harrasing me again, and told me that they are back and are going to keep coming after me until I'm dead. I've been living in fear again for the past week. As I right this I'm crying and shaking uncontrolably. My friends don't know what to say because they think "a boy is crying" and they laugh or dismiss me. My fear is that I'm not going to make it through the week, my fear is that they will kill me. My fear is that my x lover will be my murder. It's not the verbal abuse they dish out or even the physical, it's the emotional abuse. All they have to do is call me and laugh on the phone and I'm an emotional reck. Luckly I have been able to control myself and havent tempted suicide. I don't plan on it either. My greatest fear is my x, for which I am afraid I will perish under.
