Yeah i've been on the love side of the fence,its sucks..well kind of. Basically me and this guy were really,really good friends and i think we both knew we wanted more. Prom was coming up so he asked me to go with he the sweetest way ever, he came all on his own to were me and my friends hung out and asked me in front of all my friends (10 giggling girls!) i said yes. I was so happy i cried! lol Then we remind friends but started hanging out more and talking, so eventually he asked me out. I must admit i was shocked (looking back now i have no idea why!) but i did say yes. The i thought about it alot that same night and was really worried our friendship would change,so i asked him if we could wait and see how prom went.
He took this really badly and basically spread and load of rubbish about me around school and kept talking to me online saying a was a bitch and other not so nice things. The only reason i said no was becuase we had such a good friendship i didn't want us to rashly go out and then end up not being friends at all *sigh*. So we didn't speak for a year nearly and it was pretty awkward becuase we both still like each other.
The last year i found out he's going out with one of my oldest friends (i've known her since i was 4) i told everyhting to her when it was all kicking off and now she's with him. Worse still is that she didn't even ask me if i'd be ok with it. And they go to my 6th form and shove there relationship in everyones face. What made it worse was when they were having arguments he would talk to me (by that time we were speaking again) on msn telling me how much he hated her and all the mean things she'd done to him and how he really wanted me. Mean while i have to be frieds with her and not say anything and she's going round saying i'm trying to steal him! i must admitt that i would ahve happily gone out with him, becuase i realized as soon as i heared they were together that i really did love him, he's just my twin!. I used to get really,really depressed when they were together i used to cry alot and wonder if it was my fault whether i should have just said yes and not waited untill the prom, but i didn't want it to ruin us.
To cut the story down a bit they split up yay :tongue:
Were now back on talking terms 😀 and getting back to were we were, strangely enough i think i still like him. He's addictive and i just can't stop talking to him and flirting! even though he's got another girlfriend he still flirt with me..unless i'm a bunny boiler and is totally miss reading but i don't think so. He told me so much personal stuff and i told him, we seriously connected (cheesey i know!) and i still think what if every now and then becuase i do think we would have lasted a long time and i can read him like a book!. But I'm just happy were friends again becuase it was awful when we didn't talk, we used to talk all day about everything and anything. Then to not talk to him was killing me. I guess they say your first love hold a place in your heart for ever or something,but i can't get over him i'm not interested in anyone else (bar JM AND DB!).
