Mh, when looking at my previous post, I kind of get the impression that I should add some bits to it, at least I had to think about it a lot the last two days.
So as far as I know, I used to be a menace and kind of young boy who would command and boss everybody around and be in charge of stuff, but that some how changed when entering primary school. I became the very opposit. Ever since I'm more the shy and restrained kind of character. I had my few friends and we were quite fun together, but for some odd and peculiar reason I tend to make friends with people who I personally get a long quite well, but when meeting each other don't seem to get a long as got. This always was frustrating so I also restrained from making too many friends. Just makes thing easier.
During secondary school I had my little circle of friends, but nothing particularly special. Especially as my best friend after primary school left city and moved to a completely different part of the country, so I just had to start all over again. I know that one of my class teachers at 9th grade told my mother, that she didn't have the impression, that I was terribly well integrated into class and that I was more of an outcast. In a way it's true, but in a way, I just found most of the guys in my class imbecils (with the brain capacity of a vampire on cactus juice) and the girls, well were girls. ^^ Then at some stage I got the internet and I always preferred the people there, as I could pick the people more easily I found interesting and there I noticed that I actually get along much better who are older than me and so on.
Well after finish class 10 and then entering the upper levels of high school education I must have started to lifen up and improved existing friendships and found at last a group of people who were in a way loony (as mentioned above), but at the same time not complete jerks. And from there I met more interesting people, such as my BFF (or as I call her big sister 😀 ) and yeah, we rock. It's a nice group, which is quite homogenous, but nothing like the Buffy Gang. We are just normal people. Quite sadly, as I live abroad and by now most of us are studying and we are generally starting to spread out over the continent my old friends are starting to become difficult to contact. However, I do think I have improved my social skills and am more able of making contacts with people in a way, though I do find it difficult. At least often it takes me long to convince myself, that a) I really want new acquaintances and b) that these people might be also actually interested in me.
Sooo. Anyway at university I haven't got really many friends. There are a couple of guys with whom I hang out every now and then, but in a way I find them first of all mildly annoying and b I'm sometimes worried that one of them has actually got more interest into being something more than friends, and I'm definetly into man and especially not him. ^^ I still kick myself for actually meeting him. He is nuisance and yeah in a way I find he puts a dark cloud on me which inhibits my capabilites of meeting new and more interesting people. And finally I do like my new housemates. They kick so much more butt, as they guys I had last year here. We are way more fun and I find them all interesting. They keep me entertained and I hope I keep them also entertained in a way ^^
