Evil Angelus 95
Total Dork
Yesterday, I watched the episode "Normal Again" for the first time in my entire life. I had heard numerous things about it over the internet (How Charmed stole the idea and such, etc.). But being how I like to view things in order, I waited until I came to its disc on Season 6. I can't really begin to put into words how much the very idea of the episode affected me, but I'll try my best to make my somewhat random thoughts into organized paragraphs.
While I was watching, my mind was basically running wild after a particularily long day at school, and so when I came home, I just wanted to watch Buffy in an attempt to cheer me up a bit.
The scenes of the illusions (or alt. dimension depending on how you look at it) where Buffy's in the mental instituion made me feel somewhat sad and then my brain started kicking in and thinking about what lay underneath the surface of the episode itself. And so, my somewhat tired brain came up with this.
The reason I was affected by this episode so much was that it made me kinda shake out of the haze I usually go into when I watch TV and movies, and realize that what I was seeing wasn't real. It made me think that maybe the show I loved so much really COULD really be just Buffy's imagination, and that nothing I had seen up until that point was real. None of the emotions I had seen from the characters/actors/actresses wasn't real, the plots that I loved hadn't been real, etc.
Even more thinking came later that night when I couldn't sleep, and I figured, what the hell, I'll think about stuff for my fanfics. But my thoughts kept drifting back to that episode, the emotion it made me feel completely defying explanation. It was kinda like a realization that eventually we get older, and our dreams and needs change, they go through changes, and eventually we realize, we can't live in those dreams forever. Eventually, we have to move on.
Hopefully that whole thing doesn't make me sound like I should be locked up somewhere, but I really just wanted to get that out of me.
While I was watching, my mind was basically running wild after a particularily long day at school, and so when I came home, I just wanted to watch Buffy in an attempt to cheer me up a bit.
The scenes of the illusions (or alt. dimension depending on how you look at it) where Buffy's in the mental instituion made me feel somewhat sad and then my brain started kicking in and thinking about what lay underneath the surface of the episode itself. And so, my somewhat tired brain came up with this.
The reason I was affected by this episode so much was that it made me kinda shake out of the haze I usually go into when I watch TV and movies, and realize that what I was seeing wasn't real. It made me think that maybe the show I loved so much really COULD really be just Buffy's imagination, and that nothing I had seen up until that point was real. None of the emotions I had seen from the characters/actors/actresses wasn't real, the plots that I loved hadn't been real, etc.
Even more thinking came later that night when I couldn't sleep, and I figured, what the hell, I'll think about stuff for my fanfics. But my thoughts kept drifting back to that episode, the emotion it made me feel completely defying explanation. It was kinda like a realization that eventually we get older, and our dreams and needs change, they go through changes, and eventually we realize, we can't live in those dreams forever. Eventually, we have to move on.
Hopefully that whole thing doesn't make me sound like I should be locked up somewhere, but I really just wanted to get that out of me.
