Vent #10

[JenniferAlice]

Katy? Maybe you're depressed? You should go talk to a doctor, it might get worse. Even though docs are an arse pain, it's better than talking to no one about it.

 

[MinwaraYana]

Ok, I waited for 4 hours to watch Dollhouse on MegaVideo and I muted the sound. When it loaded full of the tab, I found out this clip doesn't have sound at all. 🙁

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

Stupid recital. I have to stand in front of my fellow students for 12 minutes, mess up three songs in front of them, get a fail mark, the die. Well, that's what I'm going to do, because I suck, but don't have the balls to say "screw you all, I'm leaving."
Not that they'd notice - I'm actually invisible half the time, people ignore me and ignore me, until they need something. Then I conveniently appear. I mean, I'm a really nice person, generous [read complete doormat], caring, always willing to help people out; so why doesn't anyone actually like me? What is it about me that is so massively unlovable, that I'm resigned to sitting on my own, in the corner, ignored by all. As it has been for the last 17 years.

 

[Revolver]

So I was offered $50 to help someone move the other day. She didn't even bother mentioning to me that she'd bought a used refrigerator and a used washer and dryer that needed to be moved from one house to another. So I spent about eight and a half hours moving her stuff, including the washer and dryer up some stairs from a basement and onto a moving truck, and at the end of the day, she tells me she doesn't have the money right now and will pay me later. Classy.

 

[Lemon]

My sister Jenny who is 24, fought with me today over a MAGAZINE. She called me a bitca & told me never to ask for anything AGAIN. Well guess what! I never once asked her for anything, but nearly EVERY DAY she asks me for something. She has nothing that I would even want. She just takes all the time and I finally had it today over the magazine.

Sure, it's just a magazine...but it's the last thing I had! >=| And I wanted it, dammit!

 

[BuffyElevated]

Since my dad had his carotid artery operated on on Thursday, my sister has been at my house almost every single day since. I realize she's coming over to try to help with the dishes/laundry/ whatever since my Dad can't help pitch in right now and I'm always busy with my youngest. But her kids are driving me effing crazy!!! OMG. I want to run screaming from the house every time they come over 'cause her kids are mongrels!

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

Usually I love being right...but I really wish I hadn't been right about my recital, I sucked. And everyone left me on the way home, I had 45 minutes till my bus and no-one wanted to hang out with me. They never do.

 

[Sweetescape]

My sister claims I kicked her and cause a lump on her leg..now I think I might have kicked her but I can't remember. Stupid brain.
and i've just argued with everyone today.
I need to live alone, on a hill, i'll be a hill billy.

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

Yay, more venty-ness.
It has occurred to me that I am, indeed, almost entirely unlovable. Why? I don't know. Maybe it's because "out of my league" applies to the rest of the human race in my case, maybe it's because I'm invisible 98% of the time, or maybe it's because I have a very unpleasant personality, and just hadn't noticed it. Hence I spend most of my life alone.
I mean, I am nice to everyone on this miserable planet, but still they don't give a damn. I want them to accept me, but I think I'll give up on that.
And, as an aside, why the hell did I have to go and completely fall for someone I can never have - "just good friends" is slowly killing me.

 

[Washburne]

Yep, yep. Of course I have to act so stupid. Not intentially of course, but not like that's helping. Acting stupid is acting stupid no matter what. Now I deserve to feel like I do. *bangs head against wall*

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

Alot of posts are concerning me in this thread, particularly the sweetescape and Funkyguitarbabe (though sounds like Kinslayer needs a hug too).

Sweetescape, I really am worried about you because you're heading down a very dangerous path.
You are isolating yourself and worse still, you appear to be self harming.
Your comments here are quite obviously a call for help, though I expect as you've been called on it, you're gonna deny, but seriously, you need to talk to a professional and quickly.
I don't care if you 'ignore' this post on the board, but I hope you can at least look at a couple of sites.
http://www.nshn.co.uk/
http://www.depressionalliance.org/

I know you're gonna write this off, it may even annoy you, but there is evidently an issue and a plea.

Funky - sweetheart.
You're a really lovely young woman. Take it from someone who wasn't even noticed until I started University, it gets better.
You might have issues now in school/college, but I am living proof that things get better.
If you ever want to chat, you know where I am, OK.

Kinslayer - this is stupidity and deserves the head bang

You've probably just made a mistake that an apology and explanation will resolve...unless of course you are the 'phone a friend'.

---------- Post added at 10:52 PM ---------- Previous post was at 10:49 PM ----------

Ohh and I guess I should vent.

I wanted to order take out, but why doesn't the Nour BBQ Hut accept card payments over the phone when pretty much every other take away place does!

I really fancied some BBQ Ribs and Chicken!

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

You are more than likely right, EB, thankies! I've got my plans for next year, and I think I'll be with a group of people who will like me for who I am, and I'll have things in common with. The life of a music student is not for me 😛
At least I do talk to the love of my teenage years, even if there'll never be more. He's a really close friend - I'll just have to accept it. And ignore the college people who seem so keen to block me out, unless they need me.
Oh, and Sweet, if EBs theory is correct [and I can see his point], do feel free to PM me, I went through the same thing and managed to get it sorted. It ain't easy, but it will happen!

 

[Sweetescape]

Alot of posts are concerning me in this thread, particularly the sweetescape and Funkyguitarbabe (though sounds like Kinslayer needs a hug too).

Sweetescape, I really am worried about you because you're heading down a very dangerous path.
You are isolating yourself and worse still, you appear to be self harming.
Your comments here are quite obviously a call for help, though I expect as you've been called on it, you're gonna deny, but seriously, you need to talk to a professional and quickly.
I don't care if you 'ignore' this post on the board, but I hope you can at least look at a couple of sites.
http://www.nshn.co.uk/
http://www.depressionalliance.org/

I know you're gonna write this off, it may even annoy you, but there is evidently an issue and a plea.

I'm not going to write it off, I know your trying to help but it doesn't really help me. It makes me feel highlighted. I don't like that.
I know I have problems I'm not completely blind to my own situation. I was thinking about going to the doctors and i've been trying to build myself up to having the courage to go, but I'd be wasting there time.
Its not as easy as saying go talk to someone, because when I feel good I don't think I have a problem and when I feel bad I can't bring myself to waste someone's time on myself.
How do you admit to everyone that your a failure? I can't deal with that right now.

I'm sorry i'm so sorry i'm not right, I tried I really tried to fix myself, but i'm broken. I never wanted this I just wanted to be like everyone else.

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

I'm not going to write it off, I knwo your trying to help but it doesn't really help me. It makes me feel highlight. I don't like that.
I know I have problems I'm not completely blind to my own situation.
Its not as easy as saying go talk to someone, because when I feel good I don't think I have a problem and when I feel bad I can't bring myself to waste someone's time on myself.
How do you admit to everyone that your a failure? I can't deal with that right now.

I'm sorry i'm so sorry i'm not right, I tried I really tried to fix myself, but i'm broken. I never wanted this I just wanted to be like everyone else.

I know its not easy, thats why those links have forums, you can be even more anonymous then you are here, and choose to ignore the comments or whatever.

Why would you be a failure though?
What makes you feel like you're a failure?

You should never be sorry for who you are, but you should accept you are you. When you accept that, you don't have to apologise and then you can do whatever you want.

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

Thinks that there are some members of this board that take 'laughable' to a whole other level, who cry wolf too often and soon it will bite them in the ass.

 

[Airam]

I have severely irritating heartburn thats making me want to rip my chest out.

Oh and also this friend of my roommate's that I really don't care for is about to come over, UGH!

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

I was actually starting to feel that my recital on Monday didn't go as bad as I thought, and was starting to get some of my confidence back. Then I had my guitar lesson. And all my useless so-called teacher could do for half an hour was sit there, and basically tell me how much my solo sucked, how amazing he was, and make me feel generally rubbish about my skills. I mean, if I learned stuff from him, that'd be ok, but he's a bad teacher, and non of the 10ish other guys he teaches like his lessons either, or even learns a thing. So now I'm back to feeling like I'm totally useless all over again. Thanks very much, is it really beyond him to say "yeah, this wasn't right, but you played this bit well"? Then, I coulda been happy about it, instead of telling me how bad that section was from the second I entered the room.

 

[CotA]

Ah Rangers, why do you let me down in the most hope dashingly way every single time?
Goodbye league title, it was nice dreaming of you for 4 days.

 

[luckystar]

Feeling blue lately and now another storm outside will make it 3 sleepless nights in a row, i hate noise at night.

 

[Lemon]

Why the hell do people call me Harry [Potter] when they lose a book debate? Is that some sort of insult? 😵