Vent #9

[Edmund Blackadder]

Ack, now my birthday thingy is really worrying me...I'm getting so paranoid that no-one on my course even likes me. I don't ever seem to just fit anywhere, I'm always on the outside. I want people to come along...I want the people from my course to come along, celebrate with me, be my friends, even just for a night. However, i can't even reach any of them - I'm sure I'm just being paranoid, but I feel like they're ignoring me, or shutting me out. Because that's what always happens to me.

And this is why I want to join the Royal Navy so much - I feel like I could fit there, that I could find a way out of this miserable area, and all it's horrible people, and go and do something I want. But my eyesight is probably going to stop me, and there's not a thing that can be done about it.

Oh, and I turn 17 tomorrow. And I'm not even excited about it. Why not? Because, as far as I can tell, I have very few friends, a most likely unattainable career goal, and have never had a boyfriend, or even a chance at it. No-one's ever asked me, ever kissed me, ever even came on to me whilst drunk. 17 years old...that's just ridiculous, why doesn't anyone ever even look at me?

Don't take this wrong, but you seem like a negative person and most people aren't attracted to negativity - be it physical attraction or friendly attraction.

Seems to me you shouldn't be worried if you have any friends and why you aren't attracting people, you should be more accepting of yourself.
You need to appreciate yourself before anyone else can.
Running away won't help.

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

Not taken wrong at all, EB - I think you're right, I can be too down on myself. Must be less self-aware, and like myself better. And, less paranoia might help!
I swear, I can be positive! 😛 Sometimes...

 

[anyatara]

I've been getting really stressed out with my parents recently. I don't think they realise that I'm fourteen and would rather spend time with my friends and doing my own thing, and not spend every waking hour with them. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents and enjoy spending time with me, it's just lately...Well, they only like spending time with me when it suits them. I have free time a lot and they always claim to be busy (Usually watching TV during this moments, ah yes because that's VERY important) and it's always if I start to do my homework, or tidy my room or make plans with my friends that's when they're available. If I tell them I'm busy, they start moaning at me that I only do things when it suits me; which I actually find utterly unfair. I ask them if they want to do something, and if they say they're busy I say 'How about later?' if they say no, then fine, I'm of course going to find something else to do. They treat me like I'm isolated, like I don't want to be a part of this family, but I do. This morning my neice was here and I was spending time with her, playing with her, until I went to the bathroom when I came back I was just pushed aside. I understand I can't be the be-all and end-all of their lives and I don't want to be; but they don't get to mine, either. I want my own space, but I also want to be a part of this family. In the words of Buffy; this is a rant, sense really has no place in it. >.< I just needed to vent somewhere.

 

[Fusions2]

Why do some people have to try and out beat you in something you've done that was one of the most luckiest nights of your life. They want to know what happened to me at Nottingham Rock City and in detail and I told them and I always ask how they've been and stuff and they try to make out what they did at the weekend was almost the same as what I had done to say they are in the "in crowd" then think they can suddenly jump on board on coming away on a possible holiday with me. Its so obvious they want to come with me to try and meet the band and party with them, its not happening!

Oh and I don't like groupies who think they can try and get any band members to hop in to bed with them, the guys themselves hate it they only hang out with fans who know where the boundaries are set. Its not cool either way.

 

[Sweetescape]

HEADACHE, arghhhhhhhhhhh. I need to stop drinking,after tomorrow nights party I'm not drinking for a week. Roll on the sad times lol

 

[atticus]

Twice I have called friends, when they had just received bad news. One had just been dumped, one had lost his job. It was a little running joke for a while " Don't phone us, it means something bad has just happened "
I just got a message from a friend, saying that her daughter is in hospital, and that I am not to call. Now this isn't a joke message, but an actual, if you call something bad will happen. WTF.
That actually hurt. And I don't do the hurt feelings thing. It hurt more, since I'm the only one who ever gives her a call, to see how she and her daughter are. No one else bother's.
Really pissed off now. I know her daughter will be fine, shame she'll have to grow up, with a douche for a mother.

 

[Revolver]

Great. I'm getting a cold. As if I needed that on top of what's been a crap-tastic week!

 

[Friendly Lurker]

I'm feeling a bit paranoid because I just thought that a certain new member could actually be EB!

 

[luckystar]

Bought a brand new ipod shuffle, literally took it out of the box charged it and found out the damn thing was faulty, gotta waste another day getting there and refunding it tomorrow, complete waste.

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

Two things pissing me off.

1) I'm bored in a hotel because my mate is running late -so I won't spend tonight on the lash like I should be!
Luckily they have internet access in the hotel and I brought my computer.
Grrr Arghhh.

2) To stop the rumour that seems to be going around - I AM NOT RYONIZDABEST!!

 

[Sweetescape]

I hate myself.
Last night I got so drunk I can't remember bits, but I do remember kicking the handle of my friends kitchen draw because my phone wouldn't work. Why? there all going to hate me, stupid,worthless,piece of shit that I am.
I'm going back to bed.

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

My hotel breakfast was disgusting, my nights sleep was appalling and the concierge is pig-ignorant!

BUT my friend is 30 minutes away so all is good because we have a week of getting pished ahead of us!


Note: Tomorrow we're eating breakie somewhere else.

 

[DayVBayB]

NOBODY IS ON!! It looks like I've spammed the threads... My Day sucked arse for me to spend all day essentially in front of the comp waiting for pple to come on... stupid time zones

Add to this the fact that I havent finished watching Buffy or Angel, so i'm restricted to certain sections only... and my buffy set that i ordered still hasnt come..

 

[Tueuse de Vampires]

I am SO pissed off at the weather. All day I was stuck at class with the best weather outside, and I was in a room that didn't even have a window, and the minute I came home it started raining. It also sounds like we will have a thunderstorm very soon. They so didn't put that in the weatherforecast!

Also, I am very bewildered because I just found a pair of pants I have no recollection of buying or wearing. This is weird. But I'm wearing them right now and they look super on me (sw)

 

[JenniferAlice]

I hate magpies. Yeah, that's right, you heard right. I HATE THEM.

There's a tree just outside my window, and there's a wood pigeon, and it's made a nest and going to lay it's eggs there. But these bastard magpies keep bullying the pigeon, 'cause they want to knock the eggs out the nest and eat them. Magpies are smart little f-ckers, too. They get together to attack other birds and their eggs. I know it's all part of nature, but it's making me mad, watching it all unfold outside my window.

I'm actually thinking about getting two bits of wood, and slapping them together to scare the magpies away, I've done my research and magpies really don't like loud noises, but I'm thinking I might look like a nutter if I start with the wood-slapping. I don't know, I just don't want to see the bastard magpies eat the pigeons eggs right outside my window!

 

[Fusions2]

Who do some people who are 24 years and over still get their mums to ring them if an argument has broken out?

I had that today whilst I was in Costa, someone who I had told to back off from hassling me and some friends via text got her mum to ring my mobile. I stupidly answered not knowing the number and instantly I got her mum down the phone telling me shes going to be contacting a bands management and making sure we never meet the band again. A I was offended, B I felt like I was back in school , C quite embarassed when I know she should be the one who is embarassed. All I did was be honest and hang up, who the **** at 24 years old asks their mum to fight their arguments for them!!!

 

[Sweetescape]

I stuck, I lasted a day without having a drink. I only had a can of cider, I was bored watching TV, and I just wanted to feel something other than guilt, other than nothing.
Feeling nothings worse than feeling seomtimes, but it didn't do anything for me. I still couldn't feel.
Then my sister has a go at me for not being all maternal towards her son, and she's staying over again tomorrow night with him.
I just want them to go away, that's 8 people in a house. 8 people I don't want here.
I didn't revise I should have revise i'm going to fail.
This boy from my school keeps harassing me every so often on FB and msn, commenting on my body and it makes me uncomfortable, I've blocked him on msn but he got through FB on someone else profile, he did it tonight, he makes me feel like crying. Why can they make me feel? why couldn't I feel before an now I can? now I want to stop feeling, I feel.. I want him to go away, he makes me feel like an object I've never even spoken to him at least I don't think so, he's going by pictures or something because the guys account that he's using was a aright guy. He were kinda of friends, just not close friends or anything like that.

 

[Bluebird]

My sister last night caused such a lot of trouble. First my mum said she got a text from her saying that she wanted my mum to go meet her at a bridge somewhere. Then she eventually got home herself and she could hardly walk or talk. Seems she went back to the pub after walking Kass home a little, and ended up almost passed out on the street until some guys put her in a taxi. She was then laying on the hall floor being sick, then got up and smashed the full length mirror in the toilet - on the same day that my mum had put in a new floor. My mum was so not happy.

Ugh, just a usual night in this house. 😛 I need to get my own place.

 

[Sweetescape]

You know I think instead of breaking a door handle I broke a dishwasher, nobody's said a handle was broken, but a dishwasher was....all I know is I kicked something in the kitchen.
Fool.
I think I might live in this thread. 😛

 

[JenniferAlice]

I hate magpies. Yeah, that's right, you heard right. I HATE THEM.

There's a tree just outside my window, and there's a wood pigeon, and it's made a nest and going to lay it's eggs there. But these bastard magpies keep bullying the pigeon, 'cause they want to knock the eggs out the nest and eat them. Magpies are smart little f-ckers, too. They get together to attack other birds and their eggs. I know it's all part of nature, but it's making me mad, watching it all unfold outside my window.

I'm actually thinking about getting two bits of wood, and slapping them together to scare the magpies away, I've done my research and magpies really don't like loud noises, but I'm thinking I might look like a nutter if I start with the wood-slapping. I don't know, I just don't want to see the bastard magpies eat the pigeons eggs right outside my window!

It's all over, guys. A crow attacked the pigeon and it's nest, and is, right this minute, eating the pigeon's eggs. The evil, bullying bastard. I'm gutted.