Title: waves of fire
Pairing: Spike/Buffy
Author: Marwa better known as (Spuffy) or (fadedshadows)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my imagination.
WAVES OF FIRE
Summary for chapter one: Three months after closing hellmouth, can Buffy move on and get along with her life?
Chapter One: Seeing it all again.
"Now go" these words"¦ that never stopped echoing in her mind.. He insisted on witnessing the way things will end when he asked her to leave him. Hesitantly she let go of his hand as she took a deep, read full look on his face and left him facing his destiny"¦ saving the world.
That day, when her whole life, fell down into confusion.
She could still remember what happened before that day and she could remember it clearly because she played it back every time she missed him.
She learned by heart every step, every move, every single look they had on each other's faces.
She would've felt a lot better if he only believed her when she told how she felt about him. She herself didn't realize that when the words "I love you" came out of her mouth were meaningful, she thought that she gave him what he wanted or what he dreamt of but they were truly how she felt about him that whole time.
But still, Him leaving the way he wasn't him at all was a ghost that haunted her heart and occupied her mind every minute of each day and yet in her heart he was always there throwing overwhelming glances and lovely comments over her.
How can she ever go on living without the reason that allowed her to live again and plant beats on her heart once more?
She was now in love with a dead man but she was proud of it.
Everyone around her kept asking about what happened that day in hellmouth. But she never found the right words to explain.
Now or later she'll always feel the same for her Spike.
Three months later:
A white curtain was moved by the strong wind which was raging from the opened window. A neat looking bed laid at the edge of the moving curtain. The light blue blanket covered her from head to toe. Moving the blanket slowly, Buffy held herself up to reveal a brown top and a wide white short dressing the fair silky body of hers.
She got closer to the opened window with the freezing wind that caused her awakening and took a deep look at the outside, at the unfamiliar town and the area surrounding her before she turned around and unlocked the bed room's door.
Walking silently through the many doored corridor which lead downstairs.
Buffy continued walking down the staircase and got into the kitchen, it was still dawn when she woke up. Later she made herself a cup of coffee and curled on one of the dining chairs lying around the round table.
A lost look was painted upon her eyes while she was sipping the coffee she had just made little by little.
Dawn: Buffy?
Buffy: Dawn? (While she turned around to face Dawn).
Dawn was standing at the doorway wearing her white sleeping pajamas.
Dawn: What's a pretty, young woman like you is doing at this time of the day? (Having a funny look on her face).
Buffy: I was about to ask you the same question.
Dawn: couldn't sleep is all. You?
Buffy: I had just waked up.
Dawn: slayer's nightmares?
Buffy: I was planning to say cold wind.
Dawn: I see! (As she sat next to Buffy on one of the chairs)
Buffy: how's school?
Dawn: going alright. Except for math, it's all too much. I mean there is a triangle, a square, a circle and rectangular! I dunno why they make such a big deal about it.
Buffy: I used to feel the same when I was about your age!
Dawn: Buffy, honestly. Are you okay?
Buffy: yes. Why wouldn't I be?
Dawn: it's just that you haven't been around here lately.
Buffy: what? I was sitting in front of you guys for about three months!
Dawn: yes, you were. But you weren't here I mean that you're here physically but not emotionally! I'm not sure that's"¦.
Buffy: Dawn, we've already been through this. I told you that I'm not ready to speak about it.
Dawn: Buffy, you have to tell me, I need to know so I could help you!
Now more than ever.
Buffy: it isn't that easy.
Dawn: the whole town was destroyed and the only thing you've told us was that Spike caused it! I wanna know, Buffy!
Buffy: I said that I'm not ready, I probably need more time.
Dawn: it's all about time. I waited three months. You have to let me know what happened that day to you and him.
Buffy: then you'll have to promise me that you'll clean your room.
Dawn: I promise.
Buffy: so what do you wanna know?
Dawn: the reason that made you unready to talk about that day?
Buffy: it was because of him, Spike.
Dawn: we already know that, Faith spilled it. You know what? You should have seen what Andrew wrote about you two before he went to Giles.
Buffy: I can imagine! (Rolling her eyes) I'm not exactly sure about what happened it was all very confusing, starting from the moment when rays came out of the amulet he was wearing, the one that Angel brought. Then it was pretty obvious that it started hurting him but he
Took it easy when I"¦ (Buffy was having waves of tears in her eyes)
Dawn: when you, what?
Buffy: he put his hand on my way when I wanted to remove the amulet or whatever and told me that he had to do it. (Buffy's sound was coming from inside while she spoke) I held his hand then our hands burst into flame before I told how I felt. (sighing) he didn't believe me of course, so I kept looking at his shining face, it was the first time that I ever looked at his face in the sun, everything was trembling around us hardly before for the last time I heard his voice saying "now go".
Dawn: Buffy! I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of that alone.
Buffy: it's okay!
Dawn: I'm gonna ask you this question and I demand the truth.
Buffy: yeah?
Dawn: did you love him?
Buffy: I think I "¦ it's complicated.. I "¦
Dawn: please?
Buffy: yes and more than anything I ever thought I would.
Dawn: you shouldn't have let him go.
Buffy: it wasn't really my choice, it was his. And as I've always said wars bring stupid needless death but when you look at his it was for the world, for us and also me. (With regret she was talking)
Dawn: Spike was a brave man.
Buffy: No (shaking her head while Dawn looked surprised at her)
He was a champion! "¦He told me twice that he knew he'll go down fighting, once before we went to fight glory and the other was the night before he died!
19th may 2003// Buffy's basement:
Spike and Buffy are giggling sitting against the wall
Spike: "¦ I always knew that I'll die fighting, what do you think?
Buffy: dying is just not my style... Willow will bring me back so it's not gonna work.
Spike: you know what? (Chuckling)
Buffy: what?
Spike: (with a serious glare) you're not gonna die anytime soon. No"¦ not tomorrow, you have my word and you can count on it, you're gonna get out of this things alive!
Buffy: We! Spike! We will get out of this alive!
(Spike dodged looking at her eyes when she said that and he just continued)
Spike: and you're gonna sleep on you new, warm, comfortable bed.
Buffy: Spike?
Spike: hmm?
20th August 2003// Buffy's new house kitchen:
Buffy and Dawn are sitting next to each other chatting.
Buffy: Words betrayed me then, I was so close to tell him but I just didn't, all night he held me, he thought that I might be asleep when he pressed a deep, long kiss on me hair but I wasn't asleep, I was with him, All of me.
Dawn: if I cleaned your room, will that make you feel better?
Buffy: maybe, hey it's morning.
Dawn: I'm sorry that I didn't talk to him more often back then and told him that we both did love him. (Buffy looked so confused and thought "dawn had a crush on Spike before", Dawn noticed Buffy's confused face and quickly added) In an all different way of course!
Buffy felt more relieved to know that Spike was loved and forgiven by not only her but also by Dawn.
Buffy now ran her fingers through Dawn's smooth hair with teary blue eyes that glowed by the light that filled the kitchen.
Buffy: you know how much I love you, right?
Dawn: almost"¦
The doorbell rang to disrupt this moment.
Dawn: I'll get it!
Buffy: isn't it weird for a guest to come at this time of the day?
Dawn: yeah!
Dawn headed to the main wooden door and unlocked it.
Andrew was standing, grinning at the doorstep.
To be continued"¦
I hope that you enjoyed reading this chapter and it may have seemed a little boring but I swear it'll get better. Thanks for reading everyone"¦
Next Chapter// Chapter two: Depressed.
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Pairing: Spike/Buffy
Author: Marwa better known as (Spuffy) or (fadedshadows)
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my imagination.
WAVES OF FIRE
Summary for chapter one: Three months after closing hellmouth, can Buffy move on and get along with her life?
Chapter One: Seeing it all again.
"Now go" these words"¦ that never stopped echoing in her mind.. He insisted on witnessing the way things will end when he asked her to leave him. Hesitantly she let go of his hand as she took a deep, read full look on his face and left him facing his destiny"¦ saving the world.
That day, when her whole life, fell down into confusion.
She could still remember what happened before that day and she could remember it clearly because she played it back every time she missed him.
She learned by heart every step, every move, every single look they had on each other's faces.
She would've felt a lot better if he only believed her when she told how she felt about him. She herself didn't realize that when the words "I love you" came out of her mouth were meaningful, she thought that she gave him what he wanted or what he dreamt of but they were truly how she felt about him that whole time.
But still, Him leaving the way he wasn't him at all was a ghost that haunted her heart and occupied her mind every minute of each day and yet in her heart he was always there throwing overwhelming glances and lovely comments over her.
How can she ever go on living without the reason that allowed her to live again and plant beats on her heart once more?
She was now in love with a dead man but she was proud of it.
Everyone around her kept asking about what happened that day in hellmouth. But she never found the right words to explain.
Now or later she'll always feel the same for her Spike.
Three months later:
A white curtain was moved by the strong wind which was raging from the opened window. A neat looking bed laid at the edge of the moving curtain. The light blue blanket covered her from head to toe. Moving the blanket slowly, Buffy held herself up to reveal a brown top and a wide white short dressing the fair silky body of hers.
She got closer to the opened window with the freezing wind that caused her awakening and took a deep look at the outside, at the unfamiliar town and the area surrounding her before she turned around and unlocked the bed room's door.
Walking silently through the many doored corridor which lead downstairs.
Buffy continued walking down the staircase and got into the kitchen, it was still dawn when she woke up. Later she made herself a cup of coffee and curled on one of the dining chairs lying around the round table.
A lost look was painted upon her eyes while she was sipping the coffee she had just made little by little.
Dawn: Buffy?
Buffy: Dawn? (While she turned around to face Dawn).
Dawn was standing at the doorway wearing her white sleeping pajamas.
Dawn: What's a pretty, young woman like you is doing at this time of the day? (Having a funny look on her face).
Buffy: I was about to ask you the same question.
Dawn: couldn't sleep is all. You?
Buffy: I had just waked up.
Dawn: slayer's nightmares?
Buffy: I was planning to say cold wind.
Dawn: I see! (As she sat next to Buffy on one of the chairs)
Buffy: how's school?
Dawn: going alright. Except for math, it's all too much. I mean there is a triangle, a square, a circle and rectangular! I dunno why they make such a big deal about it.
Buffy: I used to feel the same when I was about your age!
Dawn: Buffy, honestly. Are you okay?
Buffy: yes. Why wouldn't I be?
Dawn: it's just that you haven't been around here lately.
Buffy: what? I was sitting in front of you guys for about three months!
Dawn: yes, you were. But you weren't here I mean that you're here physically but not emotionally! I'm not sure that's"¦.
Buffy: Dawn, we've already been through this. I told you that I'm not ready to speak about it.
Dawn: Buffy, you have to tell me, I need to know so I could help you!
Now more than ever.
Buffy: it isn't that easy.
Dawn: the whole town was destroyed and the only thing you've told us was that Spike caused it! I wanna know, Buffy!
Buffy: I said that I'm not ready, I probably need more time.
Dawn: it's all about time. I waited three months. You have to let me know what happened that day to you and him.
Buffy: then you'll have to promise me that you'll clean your room.
Dawn: I promise.
Buffy: so what do you wanna know?
Dawn: the reason that made you unready to talk about that day?
Buffy: it was because of him, Spike.
Dawn: we already know that, Faith spilled it. You know what? You should have seen what Andrew wrote about you two before he went to Giles.
Buffy: I can imagine! (Rolling her eyes) I'm not exactly sure about what happened it was all very confusing, starting from the moment when rays came out of the amulet he was wearing, the one that Angel brought. Then it was pretty obvious that it started hurting him but he
Took it easy when I"¦ (Buffy was having waves of tears in her eyes)
Dawn: when you, what?
Buffy: he put his hand on my way when I wanted to remove the amulet or whatever and told me that he had to do it. (Buffy's sound was coming from inside while she spoke) I held his hand then our hands burst into flame before I told how I felt. (sighing) he didn't believe me of course, so I kept looking at his shining face, it was the first time that I ever looked at his face in the sun, everything was trembling around us hardly before for the last time I heard his voice saying "now go".
Dawn: Buffy! I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of that alone.
Buffy: it's okay!
Dawn: I'm gonna ask you this question and I demand the truth.
Buffy: yeah?
Dawn: did you love him?
Buffy: I think I "¦ it's complicated.. I "¦
Dawn: please?
Buffy: yes and more than anything I ever thought I would.
Dawn: you shouldn't have let him go.
Buffy: it wasn't really my choice, it was his. And as I've always said wars bring stupid needless death but when you look at his it was for the world, for us and also me. (With regret she was talking)
Dawn: Spike was a brave man.
Buffy: No (shaking her head while Dawn looked surprised at her)
He was a champion! "¦He told me twice that he knew he'll go down fighting, once before we went to fight glory and the other was the night before he died!
19th may 2003// Buffy's basement:
Spike and Buffy are giggling sitting against the wall
Spike: "¦ I always knew that I'll die fighting, what do you think?
Buffy: dying is just not my style... Willow will bring me back so it's not gonna work.
Spike: you know what? (Chuckling)
Buffy: what?
Spike: (with a serious glare) you're not gonna die anytime soon. No"¦ not tomorrow, you have my word and you can count on it, you're gonna get out of this things alive!
Buffy: We! Spike! We will get out of this alive!
(Spike dodged looking at her eyes when she said that and he just continued)
Spike: and you're gonna sleep on you new, warm, comfortable bed.
Buffy: Spike?
Spike: hmm?
20th August 2003// Buffy's new house kitchen:
Buffy and Dawn are sitting next to each other chatting.
Buffy: Words betrayed me then, I was so close to tell him but I just didn't, all night he held me, he thought that I might be asleep when he pressed a deep, long kiss on me hair but I wasn't asleep, I was with him, All of me.
Dawn: if I cleaned your room, will that make you feel better?
Buffy: maybe, hey it's morning.
Dawn: I'm sorry that I didn't talk to him more often back then and told him that we both did love him. (Buffy looked so confused and thought "dawn had a crush on Spike before", Dawn noticed Buffy's confused face and quickly added) In an all different way of course!
Buffy felt more relieved to know that Spike was loved and forgiven by not only her but also by Dawn.
Buffy now ran her fingers through Dawn's smooth hair with teary blue eyes that glowed by the light that filled the kitchen.
Buffy: you know how much I love you, right?
Dawn: almost"¦
The doorbell rang to disrupt this moment.
Dawn: I'll get it!
Buffy: isn't it weird for a guest to come at this time of the day?
Dawn: yeah!
Dawn headed to the main wooden door and unlocked it.
Andrew was standing, grinning at the doorstep.
To be continued"¦
I hope that you enjoyed reading this chapter and it may have seemed a little boring but I swear it'll get better. Thanks for reading everyone"¦
Next Chapter// Chapter two: Depressed.
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