The thing I love the most about me is my optimism. It's pretty much my biggest strenght. Even when I'm very down, I know deep down inside myself that life is worth living, and that it can be full of joy. That no matter how hard a time can be, it won't last for ever.
Also, I love my determination. I know how to get what I want or to get rid of what I don't want. My determination and my optimism are like super useful. Like when I messed up my first year of university and had a lot of things to study during the holidays to succeed. Many people thought my situation was hopeless. Some thought it was useless for me to work that hard. I didn't listen to that. I only listened to myself. I did what I had to do and I frigging succeded. Thanks to myself (and a few friends who were extremely supportive, like that one who sent me little gifts and nice cards to encourage me. It was great because I can't be all the time super-optimist, I had moments of doubt but I never, never gave up). Sometimes it scares me how I always manage to have what I want, I feel like manipulating people without realizing it at the moment. Some say I don't have to feel guilty to always have the good arguments. My determination and my optimism saved me more than once.
It already happened more than once that people try to put me down, but they never succeed.
I'm a honest gal and it's a plus. I remember, when I was working to Pizza Hut (it was my very first job ever), one of the manager said "Yeah, you are kind of very clumsy, but you're so motivate, reliable and honest that we will keep you". If I make a mistake, I say it. It's also a good thing because it already happened that someone tries to put the blame on me, but as I'm always the good girl, the manager knows I tell the truth when I say that I didn't do it. Doesn't mean I point my finger at people. I just don't let myself being accused of anything.
What else...I love to be a high-maintenance girl, I love to be taken care of...but in a situation of crisis, if I'm alone, I'm totally able to take care of myself. I can have good initiatives, I don't sit around waiting for the problems to fix them on their own.
I'm not a judgemental person, and it's very appreciated. I can expose my point of view without saying the other opinion is crap. I don't necessarily agree but I respect everyone's point of view. It can seem basic, normal, but I remember an argument about religion, with many people implicated (atheist against catholic) and I was told "Thank you not to judge us, you disagree with us but you develop your thought and respect ours, not like those who just insult us without trying to understand much".
In the end, I'm not sure I love myself, but I know I know myself, I know my flaws, my good sides, my strenghts, my weaknesses. It allows me not to care about people disliking me, I don't care about what they think about me. I know a lot of people think I'm stupid/naive/weird...And I am sometimes a bit slow to think or very naive, or weird, but I also know I'm more than that.
That state of mind is one of my heritages of Buffy. In Becoming, when Angelus says "Take all that, what's left?" and Buffy says "me"...I think it's like that in the real life. You can be alone, hopeless, you'll always have yourself.
*It's kind of egocentric to write such a long post about myself*
What about you, Blixten? 😀 What do you like about yourself? 😀
