I want to share with you;A day in the life of Sweet 😛
Wake up 7am go back to sleep for 30mins, wake up again. Contemplate missing college "I mean we break up today,hardly anyone's going to be in, psychology joy of joys will be shit, have to walk home fun,fun. Crap need to get Polly a card its her birthday today, or I'll look like a bad friend, crap need to hand in ICT work, crap have to go out tonight and smile with a load of people I don't know. I don't want to leave this bed." get up get dressed and leave.
Sit in car waiting for mum, look in mirri7or "No don't do that,early morning face not good, no make-up and shitty hair, maybe sometimes I should be bothered to make an effort?, No, no body's notices anyway, why change a habit of a life time?". Mum gets in car starts chatting a load of rubbish *stare out of window,until there silence* good it worked. Nearly at the main road, go down the hill, hah someones scratched a face into the sharp turn sign, why did they travel that far just to do that. Fell like crying, why. And why do i always feel like that in stupid place,like on the bus or waiting for the bus. Stupid woman?girl? lady? me?.
College empty so early, polly's sat down,happy birthday to her. Alex comes happy birthday did you get me text?
Oh shit bad friend sign blares above my head, I didn't send a text why,why,why? forgot must have,only remembered it was her birthday like 5 mins ago.Fool.
Walk up to ICT I don't know they were saying somthing about polly's something negative or something I don't remember, anyway I joined in act switched on hello mean Sweets. Then they go onto how I broke Mrs Todd, I didn't mena to break her, I just dislike dher lessons "your going to break Mrs Kaye aren't you?" " yes of course,I hate that woman" Remember to say something mean and grin,grin like you mean it. Works they laugh and say i'll never change, I grin back and say "nope".
Walk up to ICT sit,usual place, small tlak with polly plug headphones in and the world goes dead, listen to Katy Perry on repeat a few times feel like crying, sing alone in my head.
Lesons nearly done 50 mins of sitting and moving about images,managed to get on facebook,happy now, Polly's nosey keep glancing at my screen,what does she want? a picture. I pretend I don't notice and stare at the screen "leave me alone" silent praying is fun. Can't get on boards while she's there, she'd just laugh.
Free,hungry but can't get food, food is fattening bad. So I settle on a hot chocolate probably laden with hidden , bad sweet but its warm. Sit on my own,nice chance for a day dream only its bad well you'd think it was bad. I think escape, you'd be surprised what wikipedia has on it, very helpful. I think i'm sad but i'm not sure, numb probably. I'm fed up of this why do I have to work out my moods and why do they change in minuets? not fair life it's fair Sweets learn to live with it.
Psychology, boring leave after a few mins,catch a lift home with ellie only she has to pick up her BF. Us 3 sat in the car, stupid Sweets Gosseberry silence, daydream time again.
Have to go out later,not looking forward to it, maybe I should get drunk and go fall in the river,accident yes? I'm bored of this.
Most important thing tonight is not to stop smiling.