I had a dream last night that used to be a recurring one in my childhood but i havent had it for at least 10 years(i'd say 14 but i don't wanna be so precise).
I'm standing on a field.
This field is known to me, its one near where i used to live.
The sun is setting but its not the bright orange glow of normal, instead its a boring, colourless gray.
The Darkness begins to surreound me faster, harder making it difficult to see beyond the field.
Instantly bright flood lights flash on with an intensity that nearly blinds me, but does cause me to fall to the floor.
I look around to see what is going on.
Walking onto the pitch is a man, but i know this man, its me. I don't know how i know its me, but it just is.
Around him are 6 "wild" animals.
A Lion, A Tiger, A Gorilla, A Snake, A Bear and A Wolf.
These creatures are bigger then i would expect them to be, they are huge, emormous.
The Me thats not me experiencing all this seems to have some kind of control over the animals.
I smile at me.....(sorry that some of this is confusing but i have to make it clear that both are me, i can feel it) but me, i'm not smiling back. I'm not scared by whats transpiring, though i do know i should be scared, should be worried about this future me, as though i know its going to be something bad.
I, that is not me, sends these creatures running at me.
They run inturn, in the way that i noticed them.
A Lion, A Tiger, A Gorilla, A Snake, A Bear and A Wolf.
I'm still not scared, but i know i should be.
The animals get closer and as if by my will alone, they stop.
Suddenly i can feel these animals. I feel the power that resides in them, and i feel whole complete. I feel that i know i can control them, but i also know that i don't want to.
Behind the other me, A 'Murder" or Crows begin to rise. this time the other me isnt controlling them, they are dark, they are malevolence, they are coming towards me.
The other animals are circling me, but not in a protective mannr, almost as though they are waiting, but i still feel them. I know i can make them protect me against these flying beasts, but i don't want to.
The look on the face of 'Me' is now one of admiration, almost as if i have passed a test.
I look up at the Crows that are now flying lower, coming towards me.
I feel them now too. I can feel the pain they are going to cause, i can feel the hurt and the hatred they will instill, i can feel death.
The Crows arrive and finally they begin an assault, but i'm not the target.
The Lion falls first victim. There is no struggle, just attack and die. The Lion is dead.
Then the Tiger falls. The same again, these Crows just win.
Each Animal falls in order of my seeing them and with each one i lose the feeling i had from the Animal, instead it is replaced by a feeling soaked in hate, despair, malevolence, lust, greed and finally i get this feeling of death.
Not my own death however, i feel that i am the cause of it.
The Crows turn to me, but instead of attacking, they take side next to me.
I am now surrounded by these Crows, blood everywhere and i look back towards "me".
I look more powerful, stronger then i did when i started and i simply smile at me.
Then I wake Up.
