Part 13 - It's Safer Here
She lay on the bed, eyes wide, staring blankly. The young slayer hadn't stirred at all. Her wounds had been bandaged. The bandages covered almost ninety percent of her body. They had dressed her in Buffy's cow pajamas. Xander watched her intently, hoping that she would move even an inch. For the last hour he kept vigil over her, praying for a change. A twitch, a groan; anything would be better than this. Outside the room, he heard Willow sniffling. She had cried for a while. Kennedy stepped into the room.
"How is she doing?" he asked her.
"Well, she's had quite a scare. I wish I could tell her that it was all just a dream, but"¦" she raised her hand and pointed towards the catatonic slayer eyeing the ceiling. "Now, I don't know what to think." Xander looked at her shoulder. It had been burned badly, but he had bandaged it. Besides, slayers heal really fast. In a week, you wouldn't even know what had happened.
"Anything?" she asked.
"Not a peep. Nothing but a staring contest with the ceiling. And I think she's winning," he said. Kennedy walked around to the other side of the bed, and placed her hand on the woman's shoulder. She was very cold, but she was still breathing; shallow breaths, but breath none the less. Kennedy pulled Dawn's comforter up to the woman's neck, and tucked it under gently. The slayer's eyes were blank; no fear, no anger, no sadness.
"Where do you think she came from?" Xander asked. "How do you, you know, think she got here?"
"Well, Red said she came with her from that hell dimension. She swears that she left the apartment, and flew to hell. But"¦"
"But that's impossible," Xander finished for her, "because Will never left the bed. Then how did she get here, and where has she been? Has she been there the whole time since we did the spell?" Xander did not need to clarify what spell he was discussing; He was, of course, referring to how Willow used the scythe of the slayer to unlock the slayer line, at the battle of Sunnydale. All potential slayers, those waiting in line for the current slayer to pass on, had been infused with the full power of the slayer. They had altered the fates of the slayer line forever.
"She hasn't moved at all, has she?" Willow said, entering the room, having composed herself.
"No, she hasn't," Xander said, "I am just waiting for her to snap out of this." He put his hand on her shoulder, comforting, as she stood next to him. She smiled at Xander as warmly as she could. Willow stood over the unconscious slayer.
"I don't think this is something she can just snap out of, Xand," Willow said with concern. "You should have seen that, that place. It was icky and wrong, in every way it could be wrong. I don't know how long she was there, but I was only there for a little while, and it traumatized me a bit. I don't see how she could be after weeks," she became flustered, "or months. Oh my goddess, you don't think she was there for months, do you?"
"She might have been," Kennedy said distantly, snapping her fingers over the woman's head.
"Kennedy," Willow said angrily.
"Whoa, back down Willow, "I am only saying that we won't know until we ask her. Any ideas on how to do that?"
"Without hurting her, that is," Xander finished. "You have any ideas?" he asked.
"Well, I might have one, but I, uh, I am not sure we should do it," said Willow
"What's that?" asked Kennedy. Willow turned to Xander.
"You remember when Buffy went all coma-ey on us, and I went into her mind?" she asked him. Xander nodded.
"Well, I COULD do the same thing, but I am a bit afraid," she said as she peered out the window looking at the breaking dawn
"Why's that?" Xander questioned.
"Well, first, it could hurt us both. And second," she turned to face him, "I don't know if I want to see what I'm going to see."
"What could it hurt?" interrupted Kennedy. "If you can help get her out of this, then you should do it."
"It's not that simple," Willow retorted, "There's repeating scenes and bad memories, and, and, I could do a lot more damage than help. What if I say the wrong thing to her mind self? Can I even talk to her? She wasn't even speaking English when I saw her on the table. If I say, or, or if I do the wrong thing, she may never come out."
"How are you going to know until you try?" Xander interjected calmly, with a disheartening smile, "If anyone can do it, you can, Will. I know it. I mean look what you have already done. I mean, I believe you can do it."
"But"¦" she began. Kennedy put her hands on Willow's shoulders, wincing at the effort.
"But we will stop it if things look sour," Kennedy reassured.
"Darn tootin' you'd better," was Willow's unsure response. "I am going to need some things, then."
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Close to an hour later, the slayer had been propped against the headboard of Dawn's bed. Across from her sat Willow, finishing the final preparations for the spell. Candles lit around the room, Willow looked straight into the eyes of the woman. She held the gaze for a moment. Bright light flashed before Willow's eyes.
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Willow stood in a dank, long chamber. In front of her stood a tall banquet table with a single chair; on the other side, a gigantic throne of human of human bones and sinew rested. Both chairs were unoccupied. Willow jumped as a large door, thirty feet tall, slammed open with great force. The demon that had attempted to assault her in her dream ducked under the slightly too small entryway. In its oversized arms, the young slayer was carried, severely bruised and torn. She was dressed in a surprisingly elegant, black evening dress. Her forehead had deep cuts in it. The demon unceremoniously dumped her in the smaller chair.
"S'asseoir!" it demanded. The demon spoke a few words in an unknown language, and several large, dirty, silver, platters appeared on the table. The slayer tried to buttress her weary head up with her bruised arm. Her glance shifted to Willow. Everything but two women slowed to a crawl.
"You don't want to be here," she said in English.
"You speak English?" Willow asked.
"Oh yes," the woman replied, her voice still heavy with a French accent and quivering with several agonies, "I, I, I do. He," she indicated the demon, "He always, he always said he wanted me to, to be able to scream in all languages." Willow shuttered at the thought. The demon, still moving very slowly, lifted the lid of the platter to reveal the sickening sight of a human hand, aged and ridden with maggots. Willow wanted to wretch, her reaction quite visible. The slayer just scoffed at her.
"I, I told you, you don't want to be here," she avowed flatly, frowning pitifully, she turned her head back to the demon and the horrors before her. The scene shifted back to real time. The demon took a seat in its throne.
"Manger jusqu'à la dernière miette, Mon ravissant," it said, hands sweeping in display across the table.
"Wait," Willow pleaded with the woman, "Please"¦ stop." Time slowed again, and the slayer looked at her.
"You can't save me, but you can join me if you really want," she declared.
"What? No," Willow said, "Please, just"¦ j,just tell me your name."
"The young woman thought for a few moments and then said, her eyes widening, "It, it is"¦was R, Rene." She began to weep deeply; sorrow flowed out of her like a waterfall. Rene buried her head in her folded arms on the table." Willow was silent, herself beginning to cry from sympathy.
"Don't you dare pity me!" Rene screamed at Willow. She hid her head again and continued to cry.
"Rene, you aren't here anymore. Do you know that?" Willow asked.
"Yes," Rene said, without looking up.
"Why are you staying in"¦ in this place," Willow stretched her hands out to indicate the nightmarish dimension. You are safe now."
"Am I?"
"You are already safe," Willow said trying to cheer both Rene and herself up, "I mean"¦ we, my friends are watching over us."
"It is a sweet thought," Rene said, lifting her head lightly to regard the witch.
"It is true, Rene. You are torturing yourself here. The demon's gone." Rene looked up at the hellish beast, her face soaked in tears.
"I, I know."
"Why are you staying here?" Willow was flustered. She couldn't understand how anyone could subject themselves to this, especially any more than they would have to.
"I"¦It, It's safe here," she said. Willow's eyes lit with confusion. Rene continued, "It is all I know."
"B, but, you can come home; you don't have to be afraid any more. You have been made a warrior, like an Amazon. You have so much to look forward to now," Willow announced, trying to comfort her, "You can come home. You are a slayer now."
"I know," said Rene. She though hard, like there was something she was trying to remember. "My watcher's name was De'Claud." "Was", Willow thought to herselfdeeply puzzled look crossed her face.
"Did... did Andrew find you?" Willow tried to reason with herself as much as Rene. She had not heard of a slayer that had disappeared recently. "How long have you BEEN here?" Willow inquired, knowing that it would have been longer for the slayer, than it had been on Earth. Time in hell dimensions usually ran at a much faster pace.
"E"¦every year since I, I was brought here, he," she pointed to the demon, "he"¦ celebrated my anniversary. O...only way to know how, how long I have b...been here. The"¦the last time"¦ he, he said it was my thirty-two thousand and fourth anniversary."