S
Silve
Guest
It seems like I've been at the boards forever, when really, it's only been several months. I was browsing through my posts and threads, and came across my first post ever. Boy, did it bring back memories. To date, I've posted 337 times, and have started 37 threads. I've probably had a new signature each week, changed my avatar a lot, and of course, changed my name from silvephantom to Silve.
I've realised that I've changed a whole lot since I first started here. I remember one of the first posts I made was making fun of Dawn. When one of the members told me it wasn't very nice what I had said, my first reaction was, "OH CRAP! I blew it! No one is ever gonna like me now, "˜cause I said something mean. I didn't mean it! Oh no!" So I took out my dictionary and used as many big words as possible to say sorry for making a mean statement.
Today, I wouldn't have to do that. For one thing, the mean thing I said was immature, and I wouldn't say something like that again. Another, I know that the people here don't care how smart I am, or seem to be, or that I'm only 14 years old. The people here are regular folks too, who make mistakes, and I don't have to impress them to get on their good side. {though it don't hurt!} Through my life, I've been trying to show people that I'm not an inferior child, and that I can carry on a mature conversation without being seen as "too young" or "I wouldn't understand." Also, since my self-esteem level has risen since I first joined, I know I don't have to please anyone to make myself feel better.
I just want to say thank you to all the people on these boards. You are the ones who know me, the real me, since, of course, you don't REALLY know me. If that makes any sense at all. My growing up in these past few months were partially because of the people on these boards, who have shown me I don't have to be "super duper" or "above" anything to be well liked or respected. People like Cordelia, N4H, Ash {Xander}, killerdwarf, and OM2.0 have been sources for wisdom and I respect them very much. You may not have had a lengthy conversation with me before, but in little ways, you've made things easier. Then there are th folks who are just great people, who don't judge, and who I can be myself around, NSlayMode, Calangel {*Maria*}, MentPatient, Josh, and Comma, and of course, everyone else who've been great to talk to. You guys sure have shown me that there are people in the world who don't care about how old you are, how smart you are, or how many big words you know. I really appreciate all of you guys, and I'm glad I know all of you.
OK, to make this thread actually have a purpose, how have y'all changed since your first posts? Who's been a major influence on you? Do you admire anyone?
I've realised that I've changed a whole lot since I first started here. I remember one of the first posts I made was making fun of Dawn. When one of the members told me it wasn't very nice what I had said, my first reaction was, "OH CRAP! I blew it! No one is ever gonna like me now, "˜cause I said something mean. I didn't mean it! Oh no!" So I took out my dictionary and used as many big words as possible to say sorry for making a mean statement.
Today, I wouldn't have to do that. For one thing, the mean thing I said was immature, and I wouldn't say something like that again. Another, I know that the people here don't care how smart I am, or seem to be, or that I'm only 14 years old. The people here are regular folks too, who make mistakes, and I don't have to impress them to get on their good side. {though it don't hurt!} Through my life, I've been trying to show people that I'm not an inferior child, and that I can carry on a mature conversation without being seen as "too young" or "I wouldn't understand." Also, since my self-esteem level has risen since I first joined, I know I don't have to please anyone to make myself feel better.
I just want to say thank you to all the people on these boards. You are the ones who know me, the real me, since, of course, you don't REALLY know me. If that makes any sense at all. My growing up in these past few months were partially because of the people on these boards, who have shown me I don't have to be "super duper" or "above" anything to be well liked or respected. People like Cordelia, N4H, Ash {Xander}, killerdwarf, and OM2.0 have been sources for wisdom and I respect them very much. You may not have had a lengthy conversation with me before, but in little ways, you've made things easier. Then there are th folks who are just great people, who don't judge, and who I can be myself around, NSlayMode, Calangel {*Maria*}, MentPatient, Josh, and Comma, and of course, everyone else who've been great to talk to. You guys sure have shown me that there are people in the world who don't care about how old you are, how smart you are, or how many big words you know. I really appreciate all of you guys, and I'm glad I know all of you.
OK, to make this thread actually have a purpose, how have y'all changed since your first posts? Who's been a major influence on you? Do you admire anyone?
