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Today my dad calls me up, and he asks if I'm gonna be home later that night. I told him that I was, and he asked if it would be ok if he visited me, because he was going to be up my way any how. So I told him sure. When he got here, he came in and told me to put some shoes on, so We could go for a ride. So I went out, and my step mom was in the passenger side. So we whent driving, and my dad was just asking me about my week. So we got down by the ball park, and he pulled over, and we all got out. I was first to get out, and I walked over to a hill. I turned around and saw that my step mom was crying. I was thinking "Oh ****, someone died. OH this sucks!" Then my dad says nick, we need to tell you something. Me and amy are going to get divorced. BAM! I felt my esence sink down to my feet. This is something that you cant have experienced without severe emotional pain. At first It didn't make sence to me. First my step mom turns to me and tells me how much she loves me, and that the hardest part of all of this was that she was affraid she would lose touch with me. And I didn't mean to, but tears ran as they pleased. I didn't break down there, but was very close. And I tried to be strong, for them. And when ever I was close to breaking down, I would bite the inside of my lip reel hard. At one point I almost pierced my lip, I could taste the blood in my mouth some times. When I got home, I just whent straight to my room. Then my mom came up and I told her that I wouldn't talk about it then. Then she tried again, and whent to say no, but I was sad, that when I went to talk I broke down. I just fell apart. I am so sad right now. It hurts so bad. What do guys think might help. I am going to go into work tommorow, I think that keeping real busy might keep my mind off of it, or it will get worked out of me. :: broken ::crying2: Kindred, please don't tell my mom about this, I don't want her to worry, And I can't talk to her about this yet. Im just not ready.