I feel the same way. My friend loves Faith and I dont understand why. I was watching Bad Girls last night and it really hit me how cold hearted she is when she told buffy she didnt care that she killed
Try rewatching that scene a couple of times, Kristin.
Have you ever heard the quote from Shakespeare's Hamlet, "The Lady doth protest too much, methinks."
What Faith is doing here is the same thing "“ avowing something over and over in order to therefore make it true. The more she thinks, and says, the words "I don't care" the more she hopes to convince everybody that that is the case.
The heartbreaking truth of Faith's nature is that the one person she hopes and needs desperately to convince that she doesn't care is herself, but of course she never can. You see, that's what a lot of fans never really get: that the Faith she shows the world isn't the real Faith. Far from not caring, she actually cares too deeply. So much so that it destroys her and sends her spiralling into darkness.
Have you seen her fight in the rainy alleyway with Angel in the Angel episode "Five by Five"? Listen to what she was begging him to do. That was her true feelings finally surfacing. After all that time pent up, living in denial but desperately seeking a way out of her tormented anguish and guilt, she can finally, to him, let it all out and show her true self, her true despair and self-loathing.
It's no accident that Faith runs from Sunnydale to Los Angeles. Angel is the only one to ever show her he understands. However, by this point she doesn't want his understanding, she wants the one thing that will free her from her own self-inflicted Hell. She doesn't take the contract on him from Wolfram and Hart because she actually wants to kill him, quite the opposite. Her actions in LA and with Wesley are done specifically, as Connor Holtz posted so clearly above here, to force Angel into killing her and putting her out of her misery. Have you heard the American phrase "suicide by cop"?
Fortunately, Angel understands that too, and won't play his role, instead offering her redemption instead of condemnation and damnation. (is hat too many "tion"s in one sentence?
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