Another Vent Thread

[caitaintdead]

Sometimes customer service can really be a horrible job. Some lady just made me cry and question myself and my job and whether I even want to do it anymore. I wish I wasn't so sensitive to people yelling at me. I felt like Britney Spears in that HIMYM episode. Just a stupid blonde being made to cry on the phone 🙁

Why do people feel the need to yell at people when it's clear that they're doing their best to help? And when I say 'I can't help you out any further, you're clearly upset, and I would rather my manager took over this' why keep yelling at me? I've explained that I'm still in training and that we're incredibly understaffed and it's only myself and a temp.

It's just so horrible. I'm questioning whether I even want to deal with the general public. It's just so difficult to motivate myself for the rest of the day after something like that.

All I want to do is go home and cry.

 

[Ianigsy]

For what it's worth, just my thoughts for the benefit of anybody who's having a hard time dealing with being gay, bi or whatever.

I wouldn't say that every attraction I've ever felt in my life has been straight, but then again I think there's a pressure on people these days to have decided their sexuality between the ages of, say, 14 and 21. I don't think it happened quite the same way when I was that age, but then the age of consent for gay men in England was 21 until the mid-1990s and I went to an all-boys private school.

But look at it this way- we don't fall in love (or sleep with) whole genders- we fall in love with individuals. If you happen to find somebody at 20 who becomes your partner for the rest of your life, that person will either be a man or a woman. And I don't think that anybody should feel bound for life by a decision that they made about themselves at 18- if you decide that you're gay and then fall for somebody of the opposite sex in ten years' time, you shouldn't feel tied to what you thought you were ten years ago. I suppose what I'm trying to say is that while it's easy to see coming out as a massive issue (and to some people it is), sometimes perhaps it's better to take things one day at a time and one relationship at a time.

 

[msfantastico87]

It 5 am. I haven't slept in over 24 hours. My head hurts. My throat is so infected. Both my ears are infected. Throwing up and a 102 fever. Haven't eaten anything in over 24 hrs because it hurts to chew and swallow. I have no voice. The medicine I have isn't working at all. Maybe I'm supposed to get worse before I get better? The last time I had these symptoms, I was 15 and I was bedridden for 3 weeks. I hope it doesn't get to that.

 

[Willow My Love]

Ianigsy agrees: I was trying to make a joke which sounded good in my head but didn't work as a post. Please don't worry about it!

Oh, see I just figured it was me being blonde and not understanding...

 

[Fusions2]

I really don't get how some people can change their minds so quickly over someone? One minute their telling the actual truth and how its made them feel and what they want to change then the next their going totally back on their word. Why? I'd never go back to someone who tried to physically hurt me because they loved drink more than their partner. I'm sorry but you've got to be terribly naive to let yourself even step in to that situation even if the person has said sorry.

 

[charmedones193]

Thank You All 😀

Doppelgang agrees: It seems like it's quite important to you, so I'd suggest telling someone, maybe start by saying as a passing comment, I think I might be bi, and see how they react, then go from there

I Might Try That, I Just Gotta Find Someone in my family who I can trust (that won't tell eveyone, until i'm ready to tell everyone)

 

[Doppelgang]

I'm a bit fed up of being anxious about things, I often get bogged down worrying about what other people think about me rather than just focusing on being myself and doing what comes naturally to me. I have people in my life who often make me feel bad about something I'm doing just when I'm starting to get in to it and I find it hard to distinguish if they're doing this for my benefit or their own, I do sometimes get too enthusiastic about certain things, but isn't that a good thing? But then what if you rush into something and find yourself with all sorts of commitments, how do you decide when to really go for something, and when to hold back and play the field?

 

[zobothehobo]

This is how I feel right now (I'd link to the lyrics of this song or a vid but it's rare unreleased so I'm not allowed to... But I wanted to post the lyrics because I couldn't explain my feelings better than this.) Just South of Knowing Why -Taylor Swift:

She didn't have a reason to go oh no
She didn't have a reason to stay either way
She didn't tell anyone by the first brave sun
She looked at her keys and found a reason to run

And time stands still when you're no where bound
But I understand it somehow

If I could drive all night
What about my peace of mind
Would it be a million miles of cold white lines
And unfamiliar exit signs
I'd just drive on by
Just south of knowing why

I didn't even know her that well
But I could tell
That her smile was only something to hide behind
She felt so out of touch
Cause she just felt too much
When you don't know what you want
Nothing's ever enough

And time stands still when you're no where bound
That's where I'm headed right now

If I could drive all night
What about my peace of mind
Would it be a million miles of cold white lines
And unfamiliar exit signs
I'd just drive on by
Just south of knowing why

I don't have a plan
I don't have a map
I don't even know if I'm
Ever coming back

I don't have a when
And I don't have a where
I don't even know if I'm going out there

But if I could drive all night
What about my peace of mind
Would it be a million miles of cold white lines
And unfamiliar exit signs
I'd just drive on by
I'd just drive on by

Drive on
Drive on
Drive on by

If I could
Drive on
Drive on
Drive on by
Just south of knowing why

I haven't felt this way for about a week. I got used to feeling good.

 

[GrrArghx]

I am so tired of not having a job. I want my own money. I mean, now is the perfect time for me to have one. I'm still young so I don't have bills and I should be able to enjoy that a while before I have to get a job in order to support myself.

I applied to at least 60, no lie, and I haven't heard a damn thing from anyone. I know I have very, very minimal employment history but I'm willing to work anytime because I have nothing else to do all day anyway, which is also another reason I want a job. I'm tired of being stuck at home, bored, all day!

Bleh.

 

[Ollehh]

I'm finishing a presentation for my film studies class at college. On my weekend, by myself, no help from my partner, who's meant to have actually helped me on the presentation, but I've done it all so far, and he's just sat around and done nothing to help.

😡

 

[Big Damn Hero]

I'm tired of being fobbed off by my doctors, being told that I need to wait over a month and a half for a psychiatrist appointment, that there's nothing they can do, when it's quite obvious to myself (in these more lucid periods) that if something doesn't get done quickly I will just have another panic attack (or whatever you want to call it, maybe it's an anxiety attack, I don't know) and end up doing something even stupider to myself.

I HATE being like this. I know it's something that will probably never change but if they won't even give me the tools I need to help myself then it's not surprising I've more or less given up.

I've been on "the waiting list" for over two years for an Eating Disorder Clinic, over three years for some CBT/DBT, and all they want to do is shove pills down my throat. I'M NOT a machine.

 

[Doppelgang]

I'm tired of being fobbed off by my doctors, being told that I need to wait over a month and a half for a psychiatrist appointment, that there's nothing they can do, when it's quite obvious to myself (in these more lucid periods) that if something doesn't get done quickly I will just have another panic attack (or whatever you want to call it, maybe it's an anxiety attack, I don't know) and end up doing something even stupider to myself.

I HATE being like this. I know it's something that will probably never change but if they won't even give me the tools I need to help myself then it's not surprising I've more or less given up.

They'll never hand out what will work best for you on a plate, all they do, as you say, is give you more tablets. Get out there and seek different options and alternatives, don't just think some psychiatrist will have the answers, for he's just another human being himself at the end of the day, yes he has access to information you don't, but alot of that information can be found via other sources for yourself if you have a good look for it.

There's loads of literature on psychiatric problems that can be helpful, obviously it depends on what your type of problem is, but for anxiety what I often get, I try loads of different things all geared towards getting me to live in the moment, rather than wasting the moment worrying about some vague future event that I find scary. It sometimes works, it sometimes doesn't.

Obviously for more severe problems its often related to childhood traumatic events, for this kind of thing a psychiatrist would be very helpful, so just be patient and have trust that the appointment will be sorted out soon.

For this kind of thing hypnotherapy is also an option although seek a qualified certified person (this is not something I have personal experience of), Another possibility is a practice you can do for yourself of interpreting your dreams, by building up an ability to remember important features and symbols from them, as the meaning in it can often help you to reveal and face traumatic experiences.

So, search through all the options available, get a definite date decided with your doctor for an appointment with a psychiatrist, then until that try other little practices to lessen anxiety so you're not completely dependent on the psychiatrist to solve your panic-attack problems.

 

[Big Damn Hero]

Sorry, I didn't make myself clear enough. I have been seeing my psych for around three years now, and it's just that they can't move my appointment any closer because my old one's got a new job and my new one's gotta do the whole catch-up thing, which is very annoying.

I am diagnosed Bipolar II; PTSD & ED-NOS and have done as much help from other places as is avaliable (support groups, self-help books, research etc) but without propper 1:1 talking therapy it's not getting very far. I'm not sure if what I'm experiencing at the moment are panic-attacks, I haven't had them for over a year and so my psych appointments have dealt generally with the more "now" stuff, but now they're back I need to get something sorted. I've tried grounding techniques for my PTSD flashbacks and stuff, but that doesn't touch the "panic attacks" (and I only call them that for lack of a better word).

I will re-read your post and look into stuff tho 🙂 Thank you x

 

[This Year's Girl]

Thanks for the support about my old roomie guys! Just though I'll update you all:

The day I wrote the vent I had enough and got tired that it had to be so hush-hush - I figured if it was someone who should be ashamed it should be her who never payed me the money. So I wrote this on her open wall on facebook:

It's not fair that you are letting me pay the bill just because subscription was written on me. It's also not fair that you keep ignoring me even though I've written both texts and messages to you on facebook, especially not when I know that you've seen them. Can you just pay the money? I've given you so many chances. If you just pay this whole situation goes away.

2 hours later she had payed the money in to my account! So a tip - if you're having problems getting your money - write to them on facebook! 😀 I think she finally realised how embarrasing she'd been acting and when she realised a lot of her facebook friends could see it she payed. Yay! 😀

 

[Doppelgang]

I am diagnosed Bipolar II; PTSD & ED-NOS and have done as much help from other places as is avaliable (support groups, self-help books, research etc) but without propper 1:1 talking therapy it's not getting very far.

I see, yeah I don't have personal experience of PTSD and ED-NOS, my dad gets Bipolar, but its more manic depression, and I think I get this a bit myself, but I've not had it as serious as my Dad yet, but then it didn't effect my dad till he was in his 40's. My brother gets schizophrenia, and we think it may be based on childhood trauma, but it's difficult to pin down, so he just takes tablets to take the edge off of it. I think these are the some of the reasons for my anxieties about things, which is a bit of a different angle on things, but still, always keep your options open, grounding techniques are good thats a bit like what I was trying to describe, and hopefully things will progress for you. 🙂

 

[Willow My Love]

I really hate when people ask your advice, don't take it, then ask for your advice when what they did goes wrong, even thought you advised them against it. And then, when you have a problem and need advice, they're no where to be found because they're too "busy". That bothers me. Why should I be a good friend when they're not? Why do I tolerate as much as I do?

 

[Ms.Trick]

I so feel like crap these days!

I have my exam-results one at the time every now and then and I either fail while I thought I had succeeded or succeed but not brilliantly, having the lowest score of my work group.
My mum doesn't help when she says "What? *******, that so, so, stupid girl, had more than you? How is that even possible? She's so dumb!". Yeah, she's very dumb and yet, she scores better than I do.
And with Valentine's day coming, I feel even more like crap because I'm still not quite over my ex-almost-boyfriend who told me I was great and listed my qualities before saying he was just with me like with all the girls. Well, I'm sorry, if you are like that with all the girls you are a slut-boy!
Then again, my mum doesn't help when she says "How come an intelligent, cute, nice, witty girl like you is single while dumbasses have someone?". She's just being mummish, but it really doesn't help, at all.

I really feel like I was on top of the loser-scale right now. Dumb, failing at school, not good enough to be more than a friend to anybody, disgusted with my image.
Part of me thinks "You know you can have anything you want if you put the necessary efforts into" and the other part thinks "Why even bother anyway? All I do is 100% crap nowadays".

And on top of that, I can't even eat anything without being sick!

And on top of top of that, I can't be around here as much anymore, I have so much work to do I can generally just pop in to give some reputation, but I don't have the time to read threads and really answers. I already worked a lot, and it wasn't enough. So be it. I'll work even more. I already hardly had a social life anymore because of the school, but it doesn't matter, I'll have even less of a social life if that's what it takes to succeed. I just know the school is just constantly testing us, and in the end, the only one left are those who never gave up, no matter how hard it was. And I won't give up. Ever. That's what I always wanted to do. No matter how tough the road is, I'll arrive at the end. That's my motto, but it's sometimes hard to stay strong. I understand why some are in depression because of that damned school!

And for the boyfriend-issue, my state of mind has always been "don't let anyone define who you are, because a boy doesn't love you doesn't mean you suck, or he sucks for that matter, it just means it wasn't meant to be". But I can't help sometimes wondering if it's not just a problem coming from me. Maybe I have an anti-boy zone around me, maybe I'm great but just not enough. I don't have to care. I don't have to care. But I can't help but to care a bit. But then again, it must be the Valentine's day effect.


I'll be happy when the wait for my results will be over and the lover's month will be over as well, so I can stand up and go ahead again.


(Pffu, that felt good to vent a bit)

 

[charmedones193]

I'm back lol. This Morning I went down stairs to watch a movie with my sister and her boyfriend and they came up stairs and watched a movie in her room. I guess no one wants me around lol :'(

 

[zobothehobo]

I have a paper due tomorrow I completely forgot about. Shit.

 

[prophecygrrl]

It's almost Valentine's Day...argh.