[Kathmandu "“ Chand Palace]
:: Immediately upon returning home, Indra bathed and made herself presentable. ::
:: She then proceeded to the nursery. Immediately upon entering, she nodded at the nanny, who was more than happy to be dismissed for a time. ::
Rajarshi, or "Raja," as they called him, lay asleep in his crib. He was just a baby. Nothing ordinary. He had fat baby cheeks and thin, black baby hair and his mouth bubbled slightly when he breathed. But he was her baby and, try as she might to deny it, that made him special to her. She loved him.
:: She did not wish to wake him, so she did not touch him. Instead, she merely leaned over him and watched him gurgle and fidget in his sleep. ::
For the thousandth time, she wondered what would become of him after Kali fulfilled her promise. Rajnath was a good man, if a little old-fashioned and overbearing. He would take care of his son. That was not what concerned her. Instead, she knew that those of her devi's kind were inclined to take lightly in others the cycle of samsara from which they themselves were fortunately freed.
:: Unable to resist the urge, she took a hand that smelled like soap and yet was forever sullied and, with it, she stroked her son's hair. ::
His hair felt soft. New. Innocent.
Once this thing was done, would she "“ she who had taken the life of three young girls scant hours ago, she who had placed her own life in peril so soon thereafter "“ be able to protect Raja from herself? Would Rajnath be able to protect him?
It was this seemingly serene domestic scene into which Rajnath happened upon his return from work.
"Ah, my pretty wife," he said in Hindi, stopping in the doorway to gaze at Indra and Raja. "How does our son?"
:: Indra turned and smiled. She pressed a finger to her lips. ::
Rajnath: "Shhh."
Rajnath smiled back, causing the skin around his eyes to crinkle further, and nodded.
:: Indra stepped out of the room and, with her head, gestured to the nearby nanny that she should return to her post. She did, and Indra closed the door behind the girl. ::
:: She stood on tiptoe and planted a light kiss upon her husband's lightly grizzled cheek. ::
He smelled like shaving cream.
Rajnath returned the gesture, kissing Indra atop the forehead as if she was a valuable thing, a thing worthy to be cherished, a thing worthy to be loved. Indra regretted that it was not true.
Rajnath: "Raja does well. He sleeps soundly, at least. Can you say the same for the king?"
The pair walked off, arm and arm, toward the dining room. Over dinner, they discussed their respective days. Rajnath told Indra of his business meetings and, also, of his more secretive meetings with the once (and future, if Rajnath had anything to say about it) great ruler. Indra, of course, lied. She recounted shopping excursions and social calls that had not happened. She did, however, tell one half-truth. This was the story of a young American tourist who had pushed her out of the way of an oncoming jeep, thereby saving her life.
"Thank God you are well!" Rajnath cried upon hearing the news.
:: Indra looked down and blushed prettily. ::
Rajnath: "I do not know whether or not she will choose to accept my hospitality, but I have, of course, offered to house her here during her stay."
This, her husband accepted as a matter of course.
The news, such that it was, of her near-demise affected Rajnath greatly.
"Thank God you are well!" he cried again, later that night, in their bedroom. He clutched her to him and kissed her and she kissed him back. He loved her, poor man. In that moment, she sincerely wished she had it in her to love him back. But, of course, it was not in her nature, no matter how she might strive or wish to make it so.
:: Some time later, in the flickering candlelight of the master bathroom suite, she soaked in lavender-scented bubbles for the second time that day while her husband indulged her by shampooing her hair. ::
:: She looked up at him and tried to smile. ::
Rajnath: "Rajnath?"
Her tone was sweet, but also tinged with worry.
"Hmm?" he asked distractedly.
:: Tears brimmed in Indra's eyes. They were, perhaps, sincere. Indra was uncertain. She could not remember what sincere tears felt like. She could not remember ever having shed them. ::
Rajnath: "If something were to happen to me"¦ anything, I don't know what"¦ promise me you will take Raja"¦ somewhere else. Anywhere else. I do not want him to grow up here in his mother's house, but with no mother."
Rajnath chuckled.
"Shh. Silly girl. That will not happen. Do not let the events of the day frighten you. It was an accident. That is all," he told her.
Rajnath: "Promise me," she insisted.
ajnath frowned as he continued to shampoo Indra's hair. He sighed.
"I promise," he whispered.
:: Immediately upon returning home, Indra bathed and made herself presentable. ::
:: She then proceeded to the nursery. Immediately upon entering, she nodded at the nanny, who was more than happy to be dismissed for a time. ::
Rajarshi, or "Raja," as they called him, lay asleep in his crib. He was just a baby. Nothing ordinary. He had fat baby cheeks and thin, black baby hair and his mouth bubbled slightly when he breathed. But he was her baby and, try as she might to deny it, that made him special to her. She loved him.
:: She did not wish to wake him, so she did not touch him. Instead, she merely leaned over him and watched him gurgle and fidget in his sleep. ::
For the thousandth time, she wondered what would become of him after Kali fulfilled her promise. Rajnath was a good man, if a little old-fashioned and overbearing. He would take care of his son. That was not what concerned her. Instead, she knew that those of her devi's kind were inclined to take lightly in others the cycle of samsara from which they themselves were fortunately freed.
:: Unable to resist the urge, she took a hand that smelled like soap and yet was forever sullied and, with it, she stroked her son's hair. ::
His hair felt soft. New. Innocent.
Once this thing was done, would she "“ she who had taken the life of three young girls scant hours ago, she who had placed her own life in peril so soon thereafter "“ be able to protect Raja from herself? Would Rajnath be able to protect him?
It was this seemingly serene domestic scene into which Rajnath happened upon his return from work.
"Ah, my pretty wife," he said in Hindi, stopping in the doorway to gaze at Indra and Raja. "How does our son?"
:: Indra turned and smiled. She pressed a finger to her lips. ::
Rajnath: "Shhh."
Rajnath smiled back, causing the skin around his eyes to crinkle further, and nodded.
:: Indra stepped out of the room and, with her head, gestured to the nearby nanny that she should return to her post. She did, and Indra closed the door behind the girl. ::
:: She stood on tiptoe and planted a light kiss upon her husband's lightly grizzled cheek. ::
He smelled like shaving cream.
Rajnath returned the gesture, kissing Indra atop the forehead as if she was a valuable thing, a thing worthy to be cherished, a thing worthy to be loved. Indra regretted that it was not true.
Rajnath: "Raja does well. He sleeps soundly, at least. Can you say the same for the king?"
The pair walked off, arm and arm, toward the dining room. Over dinner, they discussed their respective days. Rajnath told Indra of his business meetings and, also, of his more secretive meetings with the once (and future, if Rajnath had anything to say about it) great ruler. Indra, of course, lied. She recounted shopping excursions and social calls that had not happened. She did, however, tell one half-truth. This was the story of a young American tourist who had pushed her out of the way of an oncoming jeep, thereby saving her life.
"Thank God you are well!" Rajnath cried upon hearing the news.
:: Indra looked down and blushed prettily. ::
Rajnath: "I do not know whether or not she will choose to accept my hospitality, but I have, of course, offered to house her here during her stay."
This, her husband accepted as a matter of course.
The news, such that it was, of her near-demise affected Rajnath greatly.
"Thank God you are well!" he cried again, later that night, in their bedroom. He clutched her to him and kissed her and she kissed him back. He loved her, poor man. In that moment, she sincerely wished she had it in her to love him back. But, of course, it was not in her nature, no matter how she might strive or wish to make it so.
:: Some time later, in the flickering candlelight of the master bathroom suite, she soaked in lavender-scented bubbles for the second time that day while her husband indulged her by shampooing her hair. ::
:: She looked up at him and tried to smile. ::
Rajnath: "Rajnath?"
Her tone was sweet, but also tinged with worry.
"Hmm?" he asked distractedly.
:: Tears brimmed in Indra's eyes. They were, perhaps, sincere. Indra was uncertain. She could not remember what sincere tears felt like. She could not remember ever having shed them. ::
Rajnath: "If something were to happen to me"¦ anything, I don't know what"¦ promise me you will take Raja"¦ somewhere else. Anywhere else. I do not want him to grow up here in his mother's house, but with no mother."
Rajnath chuckled.
"Shh. Silly girl. That will not happen. Do not let the events of the day frighten you. It was an accident. That is all," he told her.
Rajnath: "Promise me," she insisted.
ajnath frowned as he continued to shampoo Indra's hair. He sighed.
"I promise," he whispered.