Man i feel like a bad bad friend.
One of my 'not so close' friends came round to my house today and she asked me if i could help her by letting her put makeup on me+take photos and stuff, for her college project thing. So she asked me to get ready, get a train and meet her at her college. I'm like ;o , i need to get a shower, get ready get a train in the space of 2 hours!
I told her i wasn't feeling well all day, i've been feeling dizzy and sick and just to top it with some toothache too.
I also told her that i wasn't really comfortable with the whole center of attention thing, and said that i probs wouldn't make it. She was practically begging me, but to come to think of it, she was sorta using me.
She asked me last out all her friends, alot of people bailed on her when they said they were gonna do it. I feel so bad for not going. I feel like an awful awful friend, but i haven't heard from the girl in months :| I also don't really consider us to be friends, we have nothing in common anymore, she ditched all her younger friends so she could go out drinking every night with her older pals. So why do i feel SO bad? 🙁
I've been in a downer all day now, i know for sure she will never talk to me again, but do i really care?
I feel like bitch.. 🙁