Vent #8

[Sweetescape]

Tonight's been shit, its my fault I'm in a bad mood. Have been all day I keep arguing with people, then my sister said I had something wrong with me and that I was always moody. The things that wrong with me is living with her,she's just impossible to live with, and my mum said I was addicted to the computer. What would they like me to be addicted to Crack?.
Then I watched a programme about disabled people like climbing mountains and it made me feel really guilty and upset. Now I feel like crying.
I don't want to live here any more, I want to be able to do what I want, drink when I want,sleep when I want,wake up when I want,Work when I want. Heck if I want to paint my room on one day I will, if I want to wear every piece of Jewellery I own I will do, If i want to cover all my walls in photo's and articles I like I should be able to. I'm not hurting anyone. And if I hurt myself what's the problem? I'm not hurting you.
I just want to live on my own, freedom.

 

[Revolver]

I grew a beard, but it's getting way too itchy. Maybe it's time I started shaving again....

 

[JenniferAlice]

^ Is it a proper full-on beard beard?

 

[Revolver]

Yeah, it's been going on three weeks since I've shaved (other than my neck).

 

[JenniferAlice]

I think you should keep it then. Beards are cool.

 

[Perny]

Someone called me a tease...Thanks to my small hangover I don't remember who, and it pisses me off! I wanna know who did it! Someone must pay

 

[charmingslayer]

I hate FOX so freaking much. Can anyone tell me what Jericho fans did to get a second season cause maybe WE can do that for a season 2 of Dollhouse.

 

[Tueuse de Vampires]

Was my tutor braindead when he commented my paper?!?! Seriously, some of the stuff he wrote just doesn't make any sense. Not only did he change some perfectly fine sentences of mine into stuff that kinda sounds very off (and let's not mention HIS typos in those comments), but also the regular comments....if I say in sentence 1 that a recent study has been conducted on a topic, and then in sentence 2 I write something along the lines of "In this study (here the names of the people whho did the study) found out...", how the heck is the source for sentence 1 then lacking? I mean, seriously. I now understand why the university was reluctant to let us write in English.

On a totally different note, I jsut totally hate it when I'm in my room in the morning, thinking 'not looking too bad today', but then by the time I reach university my hair is just a frickin mess!!

 

[Washburne]

I'm tired of crying. I haven't cried for real since I don't know when. Over 10 years ago? 15? Maybe not since I have a bad memory but still... And today it's been three times already. Time to improve the mood!

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

I'ma rant BIG time!

So today I find that one of my friends isn't my 'friend' on FB.

I sent this message.

Hey, how are you?

What is new duck?

Have you blocked me!!!!!!

This was the reply.

Yes I did. I was clearing out a load of people I've not heard of and haven't heard from you in a while. Everyone has mates like that and it's cool but when you didn't reply to my message about my birthday or much else, I thought that was really rubbish of you. Not even a message to say you can't/couldn't make it - but at the same time you always seem to be on here. You've also really p*ssed *** off.

My reply

But I sent you a text message, on the morning before you arranged to meet, saying I couldn't make it due to funds.

Why is *** pissed off with me?

Her reply.

Ah, I didn't get that text, was with **** from 10. Still, you've not been in touch. A little bird told me you hit the cinema...

You should ask her why she's annoyed.

My reply.

£5 (plus maybe £2 for a drink of cola) for the cinema so I'm not sitting in home alone on a saturday night or £60 (at least) for a night out in London .

Anyway, I'm not gonna defend myself, I've only not spoken to you in a few weeks for differing reasons, none of which have anything to do with you (that sounds like I mean its none of your business, but it actually means the reasoning is not something to do with you - if you get me), I've gone longer without talking to my closest friends on FB and still been 'friends' with them on FB.

Add me if you want, don't if you don't.

Have a good one

This is the conversation I had and its not my fault if she can't remember getting a text at 11am saying I won't be going because she was already pissed (the drunk kind, not the annoyed)!



ACTUALLY, I've just sent another message saying not to bother re-adding me. I'm annoyed with her now.

 

[Sweetescape]

I'm venting at the whats on your mind thread being closed, I liked that thread. What if i'm not either venty or happy?. People's thoughts aren't spam.

 

[Blondie Bear]

I have 5 more papers to grade for my first class. So far they have all been at best mediocre and at worst completely off subject. I'm ready to throw things, especially since I'm about to go get two more classes worth of papers. Just kill me now.

 

[Fusions2]

Im really annoyed right now! I've spent an entire weekend putting a scrap book together for a band Im seeing on Wednesday at an instore signing. My friend and I have spent two months promoting this all over Facebook and Myspace to get fans to send us things. Its all gone really well and the book is officially finished. But I post a huge thank you on my forum to everyone involved and the first response I get is...

"Wow thats awesome, I think Im going to do that to celebrate the guys being in the band for 15 years. Would you be interested in helping me promote it so I can give it to them when I see them?"

Talk about ****ing stealing or what, she only wants to do it to get herself more praise about being a better fan. Myself and my friend have done it because we want to give the band something back for all the hard work, time and effort they give to their fans. Im actually really fuming right now!!!!!

 

[Edmund Blackadder]

Im really annoyed right ....they give to their fans. Im actually really fuming right now!!!!!

So you're doing it for the band and she's doing it for herself?

 

[Tueuse de Vampires]

Okay. Everybody rememberr how happy I was to get off the effing codeine stuff? Well, seems like I have to go back on.
Jogging today was a HUGE mistake. It brought all the coughing back, and with the vigorous coughing, the pain I already had in my ribs got way worse. Now I kinda feel like passing out cos it hurts so bad, so I've given in and will just take those bloody pills. Man, how I already look forwards to the bad taste (and aftertaste), constant nauseau and general crappy feelings. Plus, all my drinking plans for tonight are off now. Codeine and alcohol are apparently non mixey 🙁

 

[funkyguitarbabe]

I just want to curl up in a corner and cry. Or die. I'm not sure.
I'm sure it's just "normal teenage angst", but I don't think anyone even registers my existence on this planet; it's a miserable place to live sometimes, and I appear to have all the social skills of a a very angry donkey.
And my sister won't even respond to me. She's 14 months old, and even she doesn't like me...everyone else in the family is great, but I'm useless with kids. I think I'll give up now and save myself the trouble.

 

[Airam]

Just updating on my previous vent... my car seems to be doing okay, it has seemingly survived the parking lot mishap, yay!

 

[Perny]

My internet keeps crashing!!!!!! It's so annoying when I am writing important stuff with people. /me goes all hammer wacky on the internet

 

[Washburne]

Stupid tears... I was feeling better this morning (although far from good) but now they've come again. The "normal" me wouldn't even get teary for these things but now they come. I'm obviously totally messed up at the moment. Yep, it feels great...

 

[Sweetescape]

Ok so I went shopping in my nice short dress, feeling good and stuff. Then I realise I look like a fool and the dress is to short and all these pervy old men keep looking at me, but I knew this would happen when I put it on. Fool. Then I see a wonderful,amazing ring in Accessorize (sp?) (I have a little thing for rings, they always cheer me up, I have a small collection the bigger they are the better) and its just perfect and I have to have it because it'll make me feel so good, but tesco haven't put the money back in my account so I can't buy it, so I have to leave the shop without it. I did wonder if I could steal it though, but I was with my mum so I didn't, plus that would be wrong. I don't need to be a worse person.
And i bought some perfume I don't even wear perfume and it was 30 quid, I felt good for like a min after buying it,then I was like s!!t why have I even bought this. pffft.
And my mum keeps taking me into shops and showing me all the nice things, even though now I can't buy the ring I just want to go home, nothing else will make me happy or give me the Buzz. I want that ring.