Way back when...

Kindred

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Once upon a time, back in... I don't remember, August or September of 2003, I signed up as a member of this board, and though I haven't been a hugely active member for some time now, I do remember everything that it meant to me, and everything that it gave me.

Not only did I find an outlet for ideas, ideals and intenal ponderings here, I found truely kindred souls, real friends, some of which have waned and some of which have stayed so true I still have trouble believing it to this day.

I haven't been around much and I kind of lament that, though I do still, almost on a daily basis give this community credit for everything that it gave me. I don't know how relevant it is now, but three (almost four) years ago, it meant so much to me to find the people here, connected by a common thread and so much else. It gave me an incredible sense of Belonging and confidence... it allowed me to be who I wanted to be but was maybe too afraid, at seventeen to let myself be, it was, in a way, a virtual freedom and now, reflecting on that and so much more, I am so incredible grateful and just wanted to let the people who were so instrumental in that know.

Heather
Walter
Sammy
Chas
Lethe (heather?)

And all thoes people I didn't mention by name at this moment because I am so incredible drunk. But despite my drunkenness, so honestly grateful... more than you all could know.

Please forgive my state of mind, but when one is uninhibited, one is honest... no matter how overly verbose or long winded.

I really do hold this place so close to my heart.... my first tattoo was "Kindred" on the back of my neck.

I feel I am loosing ground here and possibly, nigh, probably embarassing myself.... So the point of this thread rather than being "pointless and anoying" (I lurk) is to ask you all, new and not so new... what has Buffy Boards given you???

~Always, Kindred
 
H
Hero
your profile thing (that you'd see in your posts if you were not logged in) says you registered in september :)
This board gave me the gift a life. For a long time I was at a very dark point in my life and several times I was getting my suicide note ready and cutting myself a lot, almost every day. I was inches away from killing myself when one person on here grabbed me by the shoulders and lifted me up. Gary, aka. killerdwarf, saved my life on many occasions. I don't know what made him so much more special or different from anyone else, but he was for whatever reason. I know that if I never joined BB, and I never met Gary, I probably wouldn't be alive right now. So, yay for Buffy-Boards because now I'm happy in life... and awesome!
 
F
freakydorky
I F-ing LOVE your SIG!
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killerdwarf
Ah, yer makin' me blush...you did all the hard work yourself! I'm just a moldy old dwarf at the other end of the computer line...;)
Jenny
Jenny
Love ya hon!!!
Having a bit of trouble picturing you in an inebriated, goofy state. *sigh*

You used to be such a perfect little angel. 😉😛

Oh, and about what you posted above, well, that's a big ditto from me.

Good to see ya again, girlie.
 
A place to be myself. To have fun and even get in a debate or two. To make friends, or stay close to friends I've met elsewhere. To role play when people update..lol...and to, well, as I said before just have fun. I guess. Oh, and there's also the Virtual Dance Bar.. heh heh.
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I meant the Virtual TEA bar.. heh heh
 
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StuckinTraffic
Shhhh! You're not supposed to tell everyone about the DANCING!
Kindred I think many of us recognise what you're talking about there... I know that there is no way to possibly explain how much this place has meant to me. I am so sad that so many of the people I was close to don't post here anymore, even though I have contact with most of them in one way or another, it was definitely something incredibly special when all of us posted here every day. I really really miss having a board that feels like home in the way that BB did (it's still "home" but not at all in the same way).

I got to know my sister hear (kind of), many of my closest online friends (of whom I've met most irl too by now)... I met the person who broke my heart (hey that meant a lot even if it frakked me up, lol).. I became a geek thanks to this place! And that means a lot. (Wow, I miss having really close friends here, just realised none of my close friends except for Joamna really posts a lot here anymore... sad... anyone want to be my friend? Lol...)

Wow... I feel like such a dork...

Safe to say I would have been a completely different person had I never discovered BB.
 
I miss having really close friends here, just realised none of my close friends except for Joamna really posts a lot here anymore... sad...

I still lurk around, in the shadows....watching...

(Although not that well, "Saved Versions (0)" Huh?)

Um what has Buffy Boards given me? Help (when I was new to the fandom and help with Photoshopping), suggestions (to other fandoms, Veronica Mars is win), friends or even just aquantancies (that is so badly spelt) and many hours of time killing.
 
R
Randy Giles
Shouldn't your sig say "formerly" instead of "formally"? :) lol
E
eponinethen
True, and so does elmo and Faith, but you guys don't post half as much as you used to.. and neither do I, I guess..
I can't say Buffy Boards has ever saved my life, but I've met lots of cool people here.
 
I can't say Buffy Boards has ever saved my life, but I've met lots of cool people here. And now me and Buffy Summers can be together more and let our love blossom...like a cute little flower.

Its been a fun site though, met Randy Giles and have helped him discover his latent sexuality.
Ask yourself why his name IS Randy Giles...its because he forgot the '4'
 
Its been a fun site though, met Randy Giles and have helped him discover his latent sexuality.
Ask yourself why his name IS Randy Giles...its because he forgot the '4'

Gag me.

And lol. I should just change my name to "Randy 4 Hurley".
 
I joined BB because someone suggested it. I come here primarily because, and by the way, I know I'm not the first choice for speeches... and Buffy's tried to kill me more than once. And, I don't fancy a single one of you at all. But... Actually, all that sounds pretty convincing.

What the hell am I doing here? Oh yeah, to blow off some steam. Off of me and on to you.
 
I'm with you as well Kindred... back at the same time, a little after Sept 03... with a bunch of people... you, elmo, Rayne, Jonut, lazydolphin, Angels baby101, Danio, KD, Hero, Dizzy and a bunch of other people I can't remember the names of... it felt like a family and we were trying to give advices to each other and cheer each other up... etc.
BB brought me a lot, a place to post to when I wanted to say things I didn't dare to say in real life, friends that I could count on (even though it was just online) and later meet irl... so yeah... I feel excatly the same... and even though I don't post as much as I used to... I always come by around here because it holds a special place in my heart. :silly:

Oh and Dzhugashvili, thanky for the steam btw :silly:
 
K
killerdwarf
Yup, I remember...and your English is so much better now...or is it Scottish...;) LOL!
Ah, the memories of the good ol' days. Back when I ruled these parts... (wait.. that was a dream... lol). Seriously... this place has given me so much. It feels like such a long time ago that I joined. The reason was simple to begin with: I really wanted to find a place with other Buffy fans to talk to. Then it turned into so much more than that. These random Buffy fans became people with whom I could share my fears and freakouts. After a while I got to meet some of these people in real life... some of whom have become more to me than they will ever really know (I speak of one in particular 😉.) And others who will always have a special place in my heart as some of the best friends you could make. Anyway... I'm not gonna start mentioning names cos it's always the same when you do that... you always miss someone out.

In short... Buffy Boards has been my home away from home... and always will be (even though I lurk more than I post). 😀

Thanks for the drunken posting, Kindred. Missed you much...
 
F
Frenchy Faith
Awww.... just admit that what you miss the most is your being president! We all know it!
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killerdwarf
Yeah, president or "Queen of Chocky Milk" LOL!
You probably won't believe this but I have hardly ever posted at online forums in all the years that I've been on the internet. My real life usually keeps me busy enough so that online activities have to be fairly brief.

The Buffy Boards is the one place that keeps me coming back and the one place where I'm happy to waste a few hours getting to know people that I may never actually meet in real life. Don't ask me why that is. There is a real sense of family around here that is hard to leave behind.

Of course, that family is often the Manson family, but then that is part of the fun. 😉

Now, can I get a hug?
 
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StuckinTraffic
{{{{HUG}}}
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