No matter how much I talk (and people who know me are aware of how hard it can be to shut me up), over all sorts of stuff I probably shouldn't share (again, I've been known to just talk shamelessly about some stuff (of course not to everyone, but certain people)), but whenever I have any real problems, I feel like I can't and don't want to talk to anyone about them. And it's not only problems, I just display myself the way I want to everyone, and the amount of people who see through it I can count on one hand.
In case anyone is wondering, that's not just something I do online, actually I think I do this more in real life than here.
When I was about 16/17 I had real trouble sleeping because I was scared of ghosts.
I've made my most stupid decisions for guys I had crushes on. Not because they asked me for it, not eve so they'd like me, mostly just so I could be around them. An even worse, looking back I can realise how stupid I've been, but I always know it surely wasn't the last time I made a rash, totally sensless decision for a guy, next guy that comes along, I know I'll do the same.
I hate myself for being the bitch I am from time to time, especially to my parents. I always vow to myself to be better and try to get along with them, but especially with my Mom it feels like I have no control over it, I always end up treating her really bad.
Although I like psychology and do enjoy my studies for the most, I'm not sure if I can really be a psychologist later in life. I'm really scared I might have made a wrong decision with my study choice.