Sorry. Gotta defend Spike. It's what I do best.
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When I first saw him, I figured him as real bad "expletive deleted," the "worst of the worst," the kind of man who'd love to go to jail because he'd be king there as the nastiest of all, who would rape another man as a way to establish dominance. The "real" Spike as I see him, for one thing, couldn't say three words without cursing, and wouldn't know what poetry was.
I find your observation very interesting because it's such a complete opposite to when I first saw Spike.
🙂 I didn't think he was the "worst of the worst," but he was a bad ass, punk vampire. Commanding, owning a room when he entered, yet humorous. Great traits for a villain. But then, in comes Dru, and Spike melts. He shows a softer side by being concerned over her health. Although he's evil, he's a loyal and loving boyfriend to Dru. Not something I had seen in any evil vampire prior to "School Hard." So, I was intrigued and fascinated with Spike from the start. And when Spike threw the Annoying One in the cage and raised it up for him to burn, I knew Spike wasn't a vampire who played by the rules (except on Halloween of course
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One of the issues I have with Spike, is that HE has absolutely no idea who he is. He just becomes whatever he thinks people (i.e. Buffy) want him to be, or what will benefit him the most. I'm not even using that as an attack on Spike so much as a reason why I don't feel attached to him. I don't know who he is, I don't know what he truly stands for and that's because he doesn't.
You're right. Spike doesn't know who he is or what he truly stands for, especially after falling in love with Buffy. But, that's what makes his character (and his journey for that matter) so interesting to me.
🙂 Before he was sired, Spike had no place in the world. People made fun of his poetry, the woman he loved rejected him...he was completely lost. Then, he thinks he's found his way when he meets Dru and is sired into a vampire. He felt strong, powerful, and as he says, "Killing made him feel alive for the very first time." I really think Angelus taught him a lot about killing, based on AtS and the fact that Spike called him his yoda. He learned many things from Angelus, which made him into a violent murderer. I'm not making excusing for Spike's action. I'm just saying that it's part of his character development.
So, after being sired, Spike thinks he's simply a killer and is evil. And when he got the chip, he no longer could be that. He had no real purpose. Then, something unexpected happened. He fell in love with Buffy, the slayer who represents all that is good. I think the scene at the Bronze in "Crush" starts to show how Spike began to question who he really was and what his purpose is. In s6, we see more of that. Spike trying to convince himself he's evil and that he knows he's place in the world. Like in "Smashed," when Spike talks to the girl in the alley. It sounds like he talking more to himself than to the girl. "Just cause she's confused about where she fits in, I'm suppose to be too? Cause I'm not. I know what I am. I'm dangerous. I'm evil...I'm a killer. That's what I do."
Jumping way ahead (since I don't want to make this post too long, lol), when Spike gets his soul, he's again lost and doesn't know what he truly stands for. That's his whole character development in s7. Can he really find redemption after everything he's done? Does he really deserve redemption? Does he deserve love and forgiveness? Can he finally find his real purpose in this world and become someone he never thought possible? The answer to all these questions (at least in my opinion) is absolutely yes. Buffy believed Spike could become a better man. And he not only became one, but he became a champion, sacrificing himself for the woman he loves and the world. And since coming back to life in AtS, he's now found his purpose and what he stands for. He's a champion, who fights evil.
Seeing Spike start as a villain and progress into a champion was great writing IMO. I enjoyed watching Spike's character development and wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
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So, I guess to answer the OP original question, lol, I can't put a label on Spike as simply a lover or a killer. He's definitely both at certain stages, but I don't think Spike can be described simply as a lover or a killer because while he has a poet's heart, he's a warrior. And while he was evil (a killer), he was loving and loyal. Spike's his own label. How about that, lol?
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